A True Hearts Wish

Trying to hide the hurt of the heart. Not knowing what to feel or think. Wishing for patience waiting for hope. Confusion setting in with no answers in sight. Watching a name appear and remaining silent. Wishing for conversations like in the beginning. Yet sitting here just watching the screen. Not making a sound not making a move. Simply waiting for them to decide this fate. Unable to speak words once spoken. 3 words from the heart stuck on a tongue. Kept silent in wait until destiny is revealed. Hugs kept at bay yet wishing to hold tight. A tiny one hidden deep within wishes a family. One that doesn't require weekend visits. But only God knows what destiny holds. Only he can lay out the road ahead. So I sit watching the screen often wondering. What thoughts he's thinking... Wondering if he sometimes miss... The laughter, the talks, the smiles that came easy, The hopes of something too magical to imagine. So again in silence I sit just watching what happens next. Hoping he'll say hi once in awhile. These are only wishes of mine... Not up to me to make them true. I can only send prayers and hope for the best.

Do tears ever really stop?

Will the tears ever stop? Will the heart stop loving? Why must one pretend everything is ok? When in fact nothing has changed. Why must this torture endure? Why do memories continue to haunt? Is there any relief insight? Must this silent hurt forever exist? Pretending to hate, pretending not to care... Has taken it's toll on this conscience. To the point that only guilt remains. Love doesn't simply disappear at a moments notice. If it does, it was never really there anyway. Perhaps that's why there's guilt. Perhaps that's why tears have returned. Hiding the hurt just too much to handle. Do tears really stop? Or do they just hide from view? Does Love ever really go away?