Sunday, April 21, 2002

Questions by Msroulette

From: msroulette  (Original Message) Sent: 4/21/2002 5:14 AM
Romantic lady thought I should share this with our online family and friends, so here goes:
 
Why is it so hard to find Love?
Why do I look for it endlessly?
Is it really so rewarding?
Do I have to lose myself to gain that reward?
Who is able to Love?
do we all have it within us?
Why is it that those that are so willing and ready to receive it...
get hurt so bad?
Is it really worth it?
 
The emotional rollercoaster called Love,
One minute high in the clouds...
the next so low that crawling is a step up.
 
Am I better off learning to be satisfied without true companionship?
 
As I grow older, I find myself saying more and more...
that I am better off without it.
And yet, I still open myself to the pain I know it will bring.
 
Why do I do that to myself?
Do I deserve it?
Have I been searching for something I am certain will never be found?
Am I supposed to be happy without finding that special someone?
Is it possible for that someone to exist?
 
I used to believe with my whole being...
that there is someone out there for me.
But more and more I ask the questions.
Ever losing my faith that Love will find me.
 
I can't make it happen,
I can only only choose to give of myself...
and hope that I receive the same in return.
 
Do I want to become a cold, heartless being that doesn't believe in Love?
Or do I hold onto the idea...
that something that has eluded me for so long actually exists?
 
Herein lies the dilemna,
A dilemna I am not sure I can figure out
 
So I shall remain in limbo, yearning to not have to feel,
and still trying to give of myself...
and continuing the heartbreaks.
 
Fate, bring me that special someone...
Before I finally lose myself...
to the coldness of not feeling.

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From: ME Sent: 4/21/2002 1:39 PM
Just One Word to Describe this Poem
 Beautiful

From: Waiting4MyRedemption Sent: 4/23/2002 8:50 AM
Love comes as fast as you can think her name
Its as silent as a whisper
Strong as mother nature
Faint as the tiny heartbeat created
Its not pain , nor work
It reaches so far down
Seeping into the crevices of your soul
I wish I could tell you when it will hit you
If it will last
I cant even tell you if its worth it
But the numbness that fills my days
Tears that fill my nights
Tell me its as sure as time
We shall feel it all over again
Then you can look back
Just to ponder all these extrapolations
Over and over gain
As sure as you dare to live
So will you dare to love
Dare sweet Laura , dare
From: msroulette Sent: 4/24/2002 7:10 AM
Thank you my dear Korrie....my kindest, best friend.  You are awsome, I luvs ya :-)
From: «Qựέέή◦ộƒ◦ђέårТ§» (ME) Sent: 4/24/2002 11:04 AM
All these talented people in our little home...
Keep up the good work!
Fantastic Writings Guys!!
From: LoneJakyl Sent: 4/24/2002 4:35 PM
Yeah - since there are so many talented writers in the groups - somebody check out my stuff and let me know what you think!!
http://www.alancontino.com/poetry-prose.html
Your Own,
Gothabillie Man
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Saturday, April 20, 2002

One Heart, A poem by Cath

From: catherine47(Original Message) - - - - Sent: 4/20/2002 12:26 PM
 well I finally had a peom published.  It's the first one (after I cleaned up the spelling mine lol guess they liked it too. Okay here it is as how I wrote it.......................................
One  Heart is created by Gods hands above.
One   heart to grow show others love.
One  heart is given to us all at birth. One  heart defines each persons own worth.  One  heart can feel so many things. The range of emotion feelings bring. One  heart it shows the depth we care. One  heart is all we each have to wear. One  heart it listens if another heart  dies. One heart  consoles it grieves it cries. One  heart is all we have as we live. One  heart is richer the more it gives. One heart can change a whole world too. One  heart thats worn bye me or you. One  heart always connects to another'sheart too. For one heart were all given thats lifes clue, how well you wear thats up to you.
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From: LaurenR_1 (Original Message) - - - - Sent: 4/20/2002 12:50 PM
aww Cath,,,,
thats a nice poem...
I am amazed at all the talent pouring into these boards from the room...just awesome
Lauren :)

Friday, April 19, 2002

I wrote a poem! Hope you like it! By Grumpy

grumpy(Original Message)Sent: 4/18/2002 10:19 PM

he went to a place
he had gone to before
he always felt welcome,
it was always an open door.
the room was full of his dear friends,
and some he had not met.
his future was about to change,
he did not know it yet.
quietly she changed his life
when she whispered in his ear
he felt a lot of different things,
among then hope and fear.
she gave to him the happiness
that he had never known.
she was most important now,
her needs above his own.
he sensed her feelings growing deep
and he had felt them too.
he really longed to hear her say
"i'm falling in love with you".
he tried to make her feel loved,
in his presence she was safe.
they began to fall in love,
and then she began to chafe.
and then one day she pulled away,
he never found out why.
you may see him smile and laugh,
but all he wants to do is cry.
his life is on a different path
and  alone this path he'll walk.
he knows that they could work it out,
if only she would talk.
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From: §tổr๓ý Gõddέ§§ (ME) Sent: 4/19/2002 1:15 AM
*HUGS* That was sooooooooooooooo beautiful
From: LaurenR_1 - - - - Sent: 4/19/2002 1:24 AM
awwwwwwwww that is great hon.....
We have soooo many talented writers among us. 
From: catherine47 - - - - Sent: 4/20/2002 11:54 AM
Grumpy that was so awesome you have a gift as many other of our chat friends poems they have shared writing.  It made me cry moved me to tears awwww so beautiful such emotion depth of feeling. love cath
 
From: mbfish39 - - - - Sent: 4/21/2002 11:25 PM
 
Sometimes what we want to see from others is not possible. The ability to Love or recieve Love  is not always in our control. We can do all we think is right  and needed and still fall short of being what the other person needs.
I have spent years trying to figure out how I can Love someone enough to make them Love me  in return and you know what I have discovered? I can't. It is beyond my control to win someone's heart. I have drifted over the years in an abyss of nothingness, numb to the sights and sounds of  Love around me.
But I am tired now of drifting. I have planted my feet firmly on the ground and I will bravely look Love in the face and say "give it your best shot". I will not turn and walk away or hide my face when Love looks my way. I will embrace it......for I do not know how long it will last. It may be for a moment or a lifetime.......but I will accept it next time it comes my way. For I am worthy of  Love and I will be a better person because of it.
MB (mbfish39) 
From: monalisa - - - - Sent: 4/22/2002 8:45 AM
Hang in there Jay.....life is so hard and unfair at times. Look to the Lord to help you heal....and he will surely bring you the love you deserve. That was a beautiful and heartfelt poem, may I use it and say I wrote it??? lol....:-)
LaurenR_1 - - - - Sent: 4/22/2002 12:03 PM
Wow....
No truer words were ever spoken.
We should all adopt that philosophy.
Though even with pain...
It is better to love if only for a short while than never to have it.
 
From: Môôή£ïgђt ξ Ðέ£igђt (ME) - - - - Sent: 4/22/2002 1:56 PM 
I do agree with that!!! The feeling itself
is wonderful when Love is present.
We all go through our good times and bad times.

Pain only strengthens us even more
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From: LoneJakylSent: 4/24/2002 4:10 PM
 
wow - ya'll are SAPS!! reminds me of the state I was in before I went to hopless romantic rehab and got fixed!!!
Life is fairly simple - not complicated as everyone tends to make it out to be.  From love, life comes, from life, death comes, therefore to Love is Death!  We just have to make sure we have fun with while it lasts, but what happens once you've had your fair share of love, you guessed it -Death!!  Its an endless cycle and we have no power against it.
As I said before - its a futile war, get out while you can and run just as fast as you can!!!!!
http://www.alancontino.com/philosophies/battleofsexes.html
Preaching the bad news, Your Own,
Alan

Thursday, April 18, 2002

She let's go

From: LaurenR_1 (Original Message) - - - - Sent: 4/18/2002 7:18 AM
She finally realizes
He will never be hers.
She finally accepts
the finality.
She has suffered enough
holding onto dead dreams.
She opens her hands up
and watches as the dove flies off
soaring higher and higher,
farther and farther away from her
With a tear rolling down her cheek
She finally lets go.
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Lauren         4 -18 - 02
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From:
LongDrinkWater35 - - - - Sent: 4/18/2002 11:42 AM

I wanted to respond to this....as many of you already know, I am the "infamous subject" of these beautiful pieces of writing.  I want to speak in two realms here....first, I was fortunate to grow up around Writers/Journalists...and these Works by Lauren show a Passion and a Flare that only comes from deep within the soul of a great Writer.  Someday I hope to go by a Border's and see some of her Works on a rack.  Second, let me just not sound trite when I say that the "failure" of the relationship of Lauren and I belonged solely to Me.  Lauren is a wonderful woman, full of the love for life that we all should cherish and admire.  I hope each of you gets to know her better, and learns from this "Teacher Of Life".  Now, with that, comes my "inability" to continue in this Room.  I've said, even "threatened", that many times.  But, in the end, it needs to happen.  As the dove so eloquently flew away in that beautiful piece of prose, so must I.  Thank you all....especially you Lauren.
 
Chris
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From: hotsexykitty13 - - - - Sent: 4/18/2002 4:23 PM
Lauren.......this one sounds soooo much better......healthier somehow :-)))
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From:
LaurenR_1 - - - - Sent: 4/19/2002 7:05 AM
Thank you Chris,
for such nice words.
And for being my inspiration and my "rock" through some extremely difficult days.
Thank you.......you know what for.
Lauren

Monday, April 15, 2002

She Misses him

From: LaurenR_1(Original Message)Sent: 4/15/2002 12:41 PM

She whispers in the Dark
But he cannot hear her words
She gently strokes the pillow where his head should be laying
But he cannot feel her hand.
Her heart sinks whenever she hears his voice or feels his presence
But he does not know it
Her tears fall quietly down her cheeks as she remembers him (his hands) caressing her face
But he cannot see them.
She misses him.
4 -15 -02
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ŠẹХΨŠωèéΤhЗã®Τ - - - - Sent: 4/15/2002 6:15 PM 
awe, that is sad Lauren

Kristi Elliott
reddog4lifeSent: 4/16/2002 4:44 PM

great poem lauren . although im sorry you are feeling such pain. i hope things get better,soon,for you smile sweety you're a beautiful person hope to see ya at the party lauren till the next time

terry/reddog
 
catherine47 - - - - Sent: 4/20/2002 10:08 AM

Through words in this poem her pain is felt and shared. For those who love you as I and your friends

we are here. True rare beauty is that of a radiant brilliant light. It luminates the indiviuals heart and soul.

What a difference in a persons life it can make. You sweet Lauren have made such a difference in mine and all your friends.

From just knowing you. I see such beauty of the greatest value in you. I'm privliged to call you my friend too.

" How bright that light shines gf too". Love Cath

Friday, April 12, 2002

His Sacrifice (4/12/02)

From: LaurenR_1 (Original Message)Sent: 4/12/2002 3:51 PM 
 
She kneels before him with outstretched hands
offering up her heart to him
He turns his head with tears in his eyes
for he cannot accept her most unselfish gift.
He must go off into battle to fight his most viscious enemy (himself)
not knowing if he'll ever return to the one
who loves him
unconditionally,selflessly,wholeheartedly.
Knowing there is no other like her,
He makes the ultimate sacrifice.
He closes his eyes and holds her close to his heart
as he walks toward his destiny,
leaving her brokenhearted on the floor.
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Lauren 4-12-02 3:51pm
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From: Catherine47 - - - - 4/12/02 9:48pm
Lauren this is beautiful so very elequently written too ty for sharing your friend cath says
 
From: MΪ§§¤ß‡ТÇђέТТέ™ (ME) - - - - Sent: 4/13/2002 1:39 AM
I Say that Lauren did a very beautiful job at this heartfelt poem. It actually made me cry...

Sunday, March 31, 2002

Eagles in Flight

Mar 31, '02 4:10 AM by môôήlïgђt-ðέligђt
 
Eagles in Flight with Angels
 
Flying high above the clouds with their wings spread wide,
The Eagles flew in numbers across the sky.
Traveling through some distant lands.
How happy they are flying amongst the
Angels that are guiding them home.
Home to where freedom lies with in their
wings.
Soaring through Heaven and back again.
What wonderful creatures.
Eagles and Angels, Each special in their own way.

                                                                                                                

Thursday, March 21, 2002

River OF Tears

River OF Tears
Hidden Deep within the Eyes,
Beyond the happiness,
Beyond the soul,
Lies a river of sorrow,
Of tears shed through out the years,
Broken promises,
Hurtful words tearing at the very heart of us all...
Utter lonliness at the thought of a loved one departed.
Hopelessness that will rip apart our very souls.
These things brings sadness into the deepest part of our souls...
Causing this river of tears.
So if happiness comes your way,
Treasure it as the most precious gift of life...
For it just may be the cure that will dry up that river,
Lying deep with in all of us...
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From: reddog4life - - - - 3/21/02
 i thought it was great good work .thanks for the moment.
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Saturday, February 16, 2002

The Heart By Cath

catherine47 (Original Message)Sent: 2/16/2002 2:56 PM

What is the one greatest thing in this life beyond compare, that links us to one another as humans that care.

Its called the Heart we each have one. It's how you use, when its all said and done.

If you wear a heart well others will see. The goodness of its depth as God intended it to be.

For each unique heart is created gently, molded in love, by wonderous hands from heaven above.

Each heart merits value, a very substanial great worth, from the single moment of one's life at birth.

Each of us, we travel life's longest road, Do we keep a heart, warm, open for others to behold.

The beauty in the heart is accumulated not through monetary riches of a life one lives,

The real beauty of the heart is measured by how much it can give.

Accepting ,tolerant, without prejudice, open and free, For when a heart's worn as so, its beauty we see.

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(ME) Fåñtàsý Ðelïght - - - -
Sent: 2/17/2002 12:10 PM
Very Nice Cath and sooo true. How did you get the rainbow icon in there please gf.
I so do love rainbows.

catherine47 - - - - Sent: 2/18/2002 5:42 AM
Hi Delight thankyou for the kind words on my poem. The rainbow Icon is under the smile icon click on that, then click on the rainbow icon as this. Take care too bye Cath (Dearborn)

(ME) ªÐЯέåm¥ - - - - Sent: 2/19/2002 1:33 AM
TY Cath gf. You are sooooooooo nice and sweet