End of an era

6/7/2005 5:12 AM Where once life was happy and free its now a place one would rather not be.   Where once was trust among friends there's now no friends left to trust.   Privacy is no longer sacred It's a free for all to destroy ones reputation.   Soon the truth will be known but the friendship will be gone. Regardless of the outcome.   A person's character is their soul Once that is doubted it destroys deep within.   Nothing left to salvage Nothing kind left to say Such is the way of life.   Truth of life is this... Love doesn't exist It merely fakes out the weak and destroys the strong.   It's a waste of time It's a waste of energy   Time has come to destroy all emotion and memories that have caused so much harm.   The end of an era, a final farewell. This is a soul saying so long, This is a final Good Bye...   But... It's also a birth, a birth of sarcasm a birth of a heartless emotion.   Beware and watch... The tides a'coming and it's coming hard..

Tid Bits!

3/23/2005 7:00 PM Life tends to hand us all a bit of rough edges here and there. Sometimes it's hard to smooth out those edges and sometimes the waters stay rough longer than intended.   Slavery ended many many years ago, yet why do so many still act like slave masters and order people around as if they are inferior human beings. We are not without feelings and no one deserves to be treated as if they are beneath their station in life.   The best way to "get along" or to even obtain forgiveness is simple. All it takes is a simple hug just to say "I'm sorry". It's also a good thing to make sure the hug is genuine and not one of force just to get your way.   Ultimatums do not work in the art of getting someone to listen to what you have to say. If you want someone to listen, perhaps talk to them like a human being with intelligence and feelings and not as if they were an inferior species. What will it hurt to let your feelings be known. If you care enough to make the first move to resolve a conflict then by all means care enough to also make the second one. Sometimes it takes 3 moves before you see positive results.    Remember this! One day you'll need someone to help you and what if that person is your worst enemy? It's best to mend things now then to wait until it's too late.     The end of the world is coming. Do you want to be left out in the cold with no place to go or do you want to make sure that there's always an open door somewhere.     It seems that when life is at stake friends run away and become selfish while enemies open their hearts and their doors to your needs.     Don't ever underestimate the power of asking for forgiveness. Sometimes the worst of enemies become the best of friends. It's true!

Personal Quotes

1/13/2004 America!! Freedom, Stars and Stripes, United!! Let our Flag wave forever more!! Let us hope for a better future for our families and their familes! 2/1/2005   Angels Angels surround us with love everyday. They don't hold grudges, they don't judge. They merely love us unconditionally! Surround yourself with an angel today 1/13/2004; Beauty Beauty should be viewed from within the soul rather than from the box it comes in. From only within the deepest part of the heart does beauty really exist! 1/13/2004 Companionship Everyone needs a companion of sorts. One who will relax and calm, one who doesn't make one feel uncomfortable. A soulmate, kindred spirit if you will. This however is hard to find in these times. Never give up hope tho. For your companion is closer than you think. 1/13/2004   Driving in Pairs Driving in silence isn't as relaxing as driving with a friend 1/13/2004  Enjoyment Fun activities and good cheer bring friends closer together! Let's enjoy our close friends before it's too late! 1/13/2004  Friends Friendships are far and few between! It's hard to find a true kindred spirit! A gentle heart, A caring soul, The truest form of Love is found between 2 special friends!! HAVE YOU HUGGED A FRIEND TODAY? 7/7/2003 Ice Cream! Oh the sweet taste of Ice Cream on a Hot Summer Day! Chocolate Mint Strawberry Fudge Ripple Vanilla Rocky Road ETC...   1/13/2004  Love Of Nature Walk among the trees!  Smell the pretty flowers! See the Roses in bloom! Dance among the valleys! 7/13/2004    Pure Love Love is special. An emotion that really needs no definition.... Only a heart can know real love.....Tears fall when love is involved!! Yes, you can be "IN LOVE" with a friend as well as with your soulmate! The truest of friends deserve that kind of love for they too share that special closeness!! 7/13/2004  Squirrels! Cuddly, Furry creatures with a bushy tail. Gentle and Kind! 7/13/2004 Tears Tears fall gently upon a shoulder. Held in arms comforting and warm. There's a shortage of shoulders tho. Rarely are they there when needed. If you're a rare shoulder gently share yours today. 7/13/2004 Wishes Wishes are the dreams of our souls. It helps keep our hearts alive. Chasing away the demons of our lives. Turning rain into sunshine.

Love ♥

12/30/2004 10:57 PM  Posted byForever_Crying1 Jane, my dearest,truest, most wonderful friend....please come back....all the efforts, time invested and love that you have gathered together to create a "cr" such as yours can never be equalled by any others...you are wanted and loved, please do not stay away...love, angel malu 4/13/2003 4:05 AM  Posted by «Qựέέή◦ộƒ◦ђέårТ§» From: Cecil_27 You will be missed 4/11/2003 3:06 PM  Posted by mihawkie Queen, you are a valuable asset to the room.  You have done many things to help it prosper and stay active.  I think you should reconsider and come back.  You just might need a break from everything.                                                   Hawkie 4/11/2003 2:58 PM  Posted by brattyKelli By opinion, Queen has done so much to build a good chat room, and community.  I would find it very heart wrenching to have her leave it, as she holds it together.   Queen, please consider your decision before making a final one.   brattyKelli

Be Happy Right Now! We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another, get a new job, get a new house. Then we are frustrated that the kids aren't old enough and we'll be more content when they are. The truth is, there's no better time to be happy than right now! If not now, when? Your life will always be filled with challenges. It's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with... And remember that time waits for no one! So, stop waiting... ...until your car or home is paid off ...until you get a new car or a new job ...until you go back to school ...until you lose ten pounds ...until you gain ten pounds ...until you finish school ...until you get married ...until you get a divorce ...until you have kids ...until your kids leave the house ...until you retire ...until summer ...until fall ...until winter ...until spring ...until you die! There is no better time than right now to be happy... Choose To Be Happy TODAY! Dec. 13, '04 5:42 PM

Sunlight's Dance

SunLight's Dance The light shone through the window like a breadth of fresh air, illuminating the room within. Its brilliant light capturing shadows of art along the wall, making the room seem somewhat magical. The breeze from the open window, the swaying of the curtains added depth to the magical dance of Sunlight. You can hear the music playing outside from the winds sweet phrases, the birds adding melody to the song of Nature.

Memorial Post from 2004

Rest in Peace ARCHANGEL aka David Gauthier Born: January 5, 1966 Died: November 14, 2004 Profile of ARCHANGEL We remember the times you shared with us, your friends and family.The trip to the Haunted barn where you tried to scare us to death. You made us laugh when there was nothing to laugh at. You were not selfish with your time or friendship. There was never a moment without a smile on your face. You're presence online was full of fun. One never knew when you would pop online just to harrass or scare us. Diversity never got you down. People should learn from you! Even though you were burden with a disease you didn't deserve, you still lived with dignity. You didn't let it get the best of you. I remember you "bugging" me on messenger just to have a bit of fun. Sometimes you got extremely annoying but you still left behind a smile. Everyone who crossed your path always left with a smile or a chuckle. You touched so many lives in such a short time Many here may have seen you in the chatroom, while others seen you in here. Friends: You had many, more than you really know! Many here may have seen you in the chatroom, while others seen you in here. Friends: You had many, more than you really know! On behalf of Mr. Grizzly (who knew you the longest) and myself, (who met you only 3 yrs ago yet have known you for 6 yrs) wewish to thank you for being part of our lives and spreading cheer in spite of your burdens. bigdjg@hotmail.com

Guidέliήέs

Rules Management Requirements: Maintain a fun & ©safe community Willing to promote membership Manager Rules: Provide activities that will be enticing to the members Create eye appealing custom pages and tags that are exclusive to this group. This will ensure members stay for special rewards. NOT ALLOWED: DO NOT ban members. Any and all offensive member should only have their membership cancelled and their name posted on a "Bad Member" list. If they re-join using a different name and continue to cause problems within the group then a manager meeting is re-quired to decide their fate... DO NOT delete any pages or lists without first obtaining permission from the Group Owner. This will allow me to first save the page in notepad or to a back up group should I wish to return the page to its original state Your Manager/Owner: Queenie aka American Sweetheart THESE GUIDELINES SERVE AS A MEANS TO KEEP OUR HOME RUNNING SMOOTHLY.

I Choose You

I Choose You Sep 8, '04 11:03 PM ǻήgέ£♥of♥£ovέ♥ I Choose You If I was a meadow, I'd choose you as my flowers, If I was a canyon,  I'd choose you as my river, If I was the ocean ,  I'd choose you as my surf, If I was a volcano,  I'd choose you as my lava, If I was the thunder,  I'd choose you as my lightning, If I was a candle,  I'd choose you as my flame, If I was the day,  I'd choose you as my sunshine, If I was the night,  I'd choose you as my stars, and if I was forever, I'd choose you as my eternity. Written by An Anonymous Friend of mine. A real Sweetie talented Person!!

Something to think about...

Around the corner I have a friend, In this great city that has no end,    Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,    And before I know it, a year is gone.    I never see my old friends face,    For life's a swift and terrible race,    He knows I like him just as well,    As in the days when I rang his bell, And he rang mine. We were younger then.    Now we are busy, tired men.    Tired of playing a foolish game,    Tired of trying to make a name.    "Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim   Just to show that I think of him."    Tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,    The distance between us just grows and grows.    Around the corner, yet miles away, "Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today." That's what we get and deserve in the end. Around the corner, a vanished friend. Remember always say what you mean. If you love someone, let them know. Don't be afraid to express yourself. Reach out and tell them what they mean to you. When you decide it's the right time, it might be too late. Seize the day. Never have regrets. Most importantly, Stay close to your friends and family, for they have shaped the person you are today.

A True Hearts Wish

Trying to hide the hurt of the heart. Not knowing what to feel or think. Wishing for patience waiting for hope. Confusion setting in with no answers in sight. Watching a name appear and remaining silent. Wishing for conversations like in the beginning. Yet sitting here just watching the screen. Not making a sound not making a move. Simply waiting for them to decide this fate. Unable to speak words once spoken. 3 words from the heart stuck on a tongue. Kept silent in wait until destiny is revealed. Hugs kept at bay yet wishing to hold tight. A tiny one hidden deep within wishes a family. One that doesn't require weekend visits. But only God knows what destiny holds. Only he can lay out the road ahead. So I sit watching the screen often wondering. What thoughts he's thinking... Wondering if he sometimes miss... The laughter, the talks, the smiles that came easy, The hopes of something too magical to imagine. So again in silence I sit just watching what happens next. Hoping he'll say hi once in awhile. These are only wishes of mine... Not up to me to make them true. I can only send prayers and hope for the best.

Do tears ever really stop?

Will the tears ever stop? Will the heart stop loving? Why must one pretend everything is ok? When in fact nothing has changed. Why must this torture endure? Why do memories continue to haunt? Is there any relief insight? Must this silent hurt forever exist? Pretending to hate, pretending not to care... Has taken it's toll on this conscience. To the point that only guilt remains. Love doesn't simply disappear at a moments notice. If it does, it was never really there anyway. Perhaps that's why there's guilt. Perhaps that's why tears have returned. Hiding the hurt just too much to handle. Do tears really stop? Or do they just hide from view? Does Love ever really go away?

Shimmering Rays of Light

May 14, '04 12:10 AM ǻήgέ£♥of♥£ovέ♥ Shimmering rays of Light glowing from within. Glowing brighter with each true heart beat. Showering those in sight with peace and tranquility. Spreading happiness and kindness through out God's land. Someday turning all darkness into pure glorious light

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My Personal Vision

May 14, '04 12:07 AM by ǻήgέ£♥of♥£ovέ♥ My Personal Vision A Vision of Hope A Vision of Love A Vision of Beauty A Vision of You Come share your Vision with me!

The Walk!

Admist the trail of flowers I walk, Remembering what used to be, The laughter, the fun, the closeness. Each stone I come across tells a bit of history. The couple who held each other til their final hour, The little girl who only wanted peace for all, The tiny baby silently chosen for golden wings, Then deep in the corner beneath the weeping willow, An empty space waiting for the one walking in the clouds. Each step saw tears and sadness at a life cut short. Walking among the flowers with tears in my eyes, I see all the missed opportunities that never came to be. Silence among the roses reflect the heart of woes. The tranquility of this place is mixed with tears. For this walk I take among these flowers gently reflects life. The cemetary of those who loved to deeply found their peace.

Sharing of a smile!

Sharing of a smile! Feb 19, '04 5:38 AM by ǻήgέ£♥of♥£ovέ♥ Why must so many be in pain? There shouldn't be so many tears. There shouldn't be so many fears. Yet everywhere you go they are there. You can see pain in their faces, Fear in their eyes. Don't they know there's much worse to bear? What about all who's died over there? Isn't their fate much worse than ours? They actually do have reason to fear. We should walk with our heads held high. And our hearts should be bursting with love. At the sacrifices being made out of fear, Over there! Maybe next time while walking the street, Look into these sad fearsome faces, A word not need be spoken, just a smile. A gentle hand to lead the way to fearless day. Let's share our smiles to someone today!

This is a rebirth of writing! Unconditional Love

Love is free, there is no charge. Love is kind, caring and true. Love is unconditional. Love doesn't judge nor complain, It don't give ultimatums or orders, It only holds you in comfort away from fear, Love don't hurt nor does it fear, It don't listen to rumors or jealously, It dries your tears when your sad, It accepts you for being you, Love don't care what you do, It will merely support your decisions, Whether you are right or wrong, Love will not falter, It hugs your soul when there's need, It caresses your heart to feel joy, It takes nothing from you, It does not give you pain, It merely lets you know someone cares, You will not be judged on your habits, You will not be judged on the way you dress, You will not be judged on the way you look, Love don't care if your fat or skinny, It don't care if your young or old, It don't care what trouble you've been in, Love don't care about the rumors, Love only cares about the person you are, It don't care about the person you were, My plea to you is simply this, Love simply, Love true, Love forever; And most important of all, Love Unconditionally!   Give your unconditional love to someone today. Share a hug. ========================================= From: AppealingCatherine_49 - - - - 2/11/04 Love is what connects each heart to another,it’s the good in all people, to look at someone else as they just are, to me that’s love accpetance. what I feel how about anyone else? Share your thoughts..miss everyone too ..love Cath =========================================

A Person without soul!

Something was missing, something was lost. What it was she only knew. She was losing her romantic heart. Where were the kisses that were more than just goodbyes and hello? The morning and afternoon kisses, The after breakfast, lunch, dinner kisses, The "I miss you" & "I care" kiss, The gentle, soft, loving kiss, The long passionate never let go kiss. She couldn’t help but wonder if she was the cause. Her heart was cracking, not breaking. Still the tears wouldn't stop flowing. She felt undesirable. She felt not good enough to be kissed, but once. Where were the hugs that never let go? The ones that just held ya when you felt blue, The hugs that comforted free falling tears, The hugs that needed no reason but just to hold. All she wanted was to feel special. She only felt used, even though she actually wasn’t. She wanted to be able to cry without reason. She wanted strong arms to hold & comfort her. She had lost all hope, all vision. Her soul was dying and she didn’t feel like fighting. She sat in her corner with her precious notebook. It was her silent refuge away from the dangers of life. The one thing that always brought happiness, now only brought sadness. Standing up she took one more look at her precious refuge, and tossed it out the window. People seemed so cruel and misunderstood. They had told her to stop escaping. Her notebook was exactly that: Her escape. She couldn’t bear it any longer. The tears flowed more heavily then before. She wanted to be a person she was proud of. Without her little escape, she was disgusted  with even her own shadow. She decided that perhaps she’ll be exactly what others wanted her to be. To be the person that had no heart and no soul. They merely wanted a business attitude that had no life. No substance. They assumed that she was herself when out and about. They were wrong. The real her came out in her writings, without those she was going to be like the rest. With one last teardrop, she got up from her corner, wiped her eyes, decided to be the way people wanted her to be. A person without soul! ========================================= From: latenite - - - - 2/5/04 WOW WOW WOW WHY do We have to conform to the MOLD that society sets forth? WHY can't We be Our OWN person? =========================================

True Love

The Meeting 12/20/2003 12:51 AM Sometimes out of the blue you meet someone who brings laughter and smiles back into your life. It makes you feel real good inside that these souls still exist. That special person can make you feel happy when it's really needed. The Realization 1/21/2004 11:05 AM   Love tends to sneak up on you when you least expect it. By the time you realize it's upon you, it's too late to push aside. Let it grow and hope this time it'll remain precious and your heart unbroken. Let love flow through every vein in your essence, let it consume your every breath. True love only comes once in forever. This must be it. The Betrayal 4/2/2004 1:30 PM It was never intended to betray. Only to be the best for you. To make you happier than before. So I studied to see who made ya smile. Studied all you called your friends. Hoping to be like them to make you laugh like they. Watching you give them hugs while I got none. Lot of things I should have said but fear took over. Afraid of anger at words spoken from only feelings. When only feelings were told. The intentions were only to make you happier. The actions; however, I admit were wrong. I hope to make it right, to change what's wrong. My fears should have been revealed to you. Instead of hidden away from you. I hope it can be as it was before it came to this. I wanted special moments of just 2 and not crowds. Hiding behing a face 4/2/2004 11:45 AM I hate hiding behind a face not mine. If it works to return my heart then I'll take the challenge. The only thing that can't hide is the look in my eyes when I think of you. I pray I'm able to fix what is broke. I don't know how long I can keep this up hopefully long enough for it to work. Love seems so difficult at times. I will sit silently and cry my tears. The Task 4/11/2004 7:14 PM There's just too much to deal with today. It's all one sided. Everything falls on me. I still have no idea where to begin. From the beginning? That's not possible when your feelings are this strong. You can't pretend this hasn't happened. Trying to figure out what to do just isn't easy. I only know the end is here for me. I won't start over but continue on from here. I'll wait as long as it takes to make things right. But will I continue to be blocked from succeeding? The longest wait was 10 years. I hope I don't have to wait that long again. Perhaps I'll give myself my own time frame. Yet I won't reveal that here. I will win when I put my mind to something. Who knows what will work and what will not. The Wait 4/23/2004 10:04 AM Why is it so hard to wait? This is tearing me all apart. I'm slowly disappearing into the darkest reaches of the universe. It's a death of sorts that comes upon me. Will I ever be revived? How long must I wait? Fear of the unknown is getting to me. I can't escape from this. Never before have I felt this kind of pain. I only hope for a miracle that I seek. Time is all I have left. Patiently waiting for the one true love. Hard enough but must be done. I just hope this isn't the end. I simply can't bear the thought. Missing pieces 5/06/2004 There's a huge piece of my heart missing and my soul is without life. You took those with you when you went away. There's a hole where my life had been. That piece is also in your care. I've lost the one thing that really made me whole. Praying each night it will find it's way back. To repair the damage that's been caused. There's still time, of this I know. But how much longer will I suffer? God above only knows. I hope he carries me through this. Without your love I'm a useless wasteland. I can't even function like before. Will I ever recover from this missing heart? Only God and time can answer that. I dream for patience that I must learn. The key to the repair lies within. So here I say this little prayer... ~*Lord, grant me the patience to endure this trial, this test of devotion that is my calling. Help me to learn this gentle gift that I may find true love returned. I give my heart into your hands, my soul as well is given thee. Thank thee all for thy care of me as this journey, I must make.~* 11/9/2004 4:50 AM Tears hidden behind these eyes, Silently grieving as if life's end is near. Hurting like never before, Never again will my heart know happiness. It's death growing closer with each passing day. No more will love be given to another. No more strong arms braced in a hug. Hugs become less meaningful. Smiles become faked. Laughter will only be a fleeting moment. It too will be short lived. This heart dies a little more with each memory. This soul hurts more with each dying beat. Soon both will be replaced with an unhappy shell. A gift of love given freely, totally and without judgement is now only shuttered forever.

Precious Memories