one last poem

From: grumpy (Original Message) - - - - Sent: 4/30/2002 9:01 PM happiness is fleeting, it comes and goes too fast. i'm beginning to wonder if true love can last. she broke up with me as a pre-emptive strike. she thought i was dumping her after a minor fight. she must have underestimated just how much i cared. my heart i opened up to her, to her my sould i bared. i had fallen in love with her, and now i'm feeling sorrow. hand in hand i wanted her facing all of life's tomorrows. i gave her my devotion without hesitation. i gave her all my love without reservation. her happiness was my concern she knew just how i felt. all she had to do to me was hold me and i'd melt. i know she was in love with me, i saw it in her eyes. i never questioned her honesty, she never told me lies. but then when things were not so good, and the road of life got rough the tender steak of life we ate suddenly got tough. i was more committed to her than she was to me. but i know its over now, my blinded eyes now see. there's nothing left for me to do, but sit and wonder why. i realize the end has come, i've no more tears to cry. =================================================================== From: ŠẹХΨŠωèéΤhЗã®Τ - - - - Sent: 5/1/2002 1:49 PM I really like this one, even though it is a sad one.....   From Sexy =================================================================== From: Starry - - - - Sent: 5/2/2002 2:33 AM Hi Grumpy!       I must say I was touched my your poem. I could just feel every word as I read it. It makes u think of that "one that got away" and all the feelings involved within yourself. Great job!   Starry =================================================================== From: «Qựέέή◊ß» (ME) - - - - Sent: 5/2/2002 11:02 AM HUGSto my favorite sweet guy. That Poem made me cry. I am sure that your Lady Fair will find you soon.Hang in there Once again yourwill be mended and once again you will find happiness and cheer.Don't let disappointments get you down..... Things will come through for you. I promise this!!! Let the music flow through your veins, the song will soon follow ================================================================== From: catherine47 - - - - Sent: 5/2/2002 5:39 PM Grumpyyour poem speaks of such depth of feeling. You write so beautifully too. Please don't ever stop writing you have a gift. Let the rain fall wash away pain for surely that sun alwaysshines again Cath says.. Love ya too my sweet friend ================================================================== From: grumpy - - - - Sent: 5/3/2002 9:10pm thank you for your words of encouragement. i think i'm done writing for a while. you see, the writing is a reflection of the pain in my heart and soul, but i have since purged myself of all the pain and negativity that i was going thru. writing helped me do that, and now i feel healed and ready to move on with my life. i hold no ill will towards anyone. how could i expect jesus to forgive me of my sins if i don't forgive others the hurt they cause in my life. the only constant i have in life is my love of the lord.

May God by Cath

From: catherine47 - - - - Sent: 4/30/2002 11:18 AM May God bless you greatly in every way.  May God keep you safe from harms way.  May God give you strength to always cope.  May you know with God thiers always hope.  May you believe in others and  love  them too.  May you know  God  has a plan forme and you.  May you always believe as I, God always comes through.  May you know I'm never ashamed to admit or say I love God so dearly in every way.  May you know with  God miracles  do come true, I have seen some in my lifetime too.  May you know with these words I write so true.  May you know that always with God there is a way.  May God bless you always with  my heart I pray.    By Cath 4/30/2002

Feel the Sun

From: catherine47 - - - - Sent: 4/28/2002 9:56 PM Sometimes stop to listen to the sounds of children when its spring. The happiness they exude that this season brings. The warmth of the sun dancing upon thier face. As they frolic playing with such innocent grace. All the endless adventures the places thier imaginations can go, will remain steadfast inside them as they mature and grow. We all delight in children, watching them play. Recalling smiling we all once felt that way. Through childrens eyes we too again can see. That little inner child in you and me. We often feel compelled to release that inner child of ours to come out to play. Then with our adult eyes we forget that child in us fades away. It takes a child to remind us all, one who younger, very small. We can all enjoy still have fun. Feeling the warmth of that early spring sun. Simply taking some time slowing down the grown up pace. Allows the sun to shine dancing too on our face.  By Cath

Magic Lantern - A joke by Jerry (Whodathunkit)

From: Jerry  (Original Message) Sent: 4/25/2002 3:31 AM A man is combing the beach in California and stumbles into a lantern. he picks it up and starts to rub off the sand and out pops a Genie. "Dude!, thanks a million for letting me out of that couped up lantern!, I have been stuck in that damn thing for over 1000 years, to show you how greatful I am to you, I will grant you a wish." the man says .....""A" wish??, I thought I was supposed to get THREE wishes?!?" The Genie says "Look Pal, times are tough everywhere, everyone is cutting back, take it or leave it." The man, knowing he has no other choice, he thinks real hard about his wish and says "OK, because i can't take a boat because i get violently seasick, and i would never fly in a million years, I want a bridge to Hawaii so i can go there anytime i want"   The Genie says "You must be out of your mind, you have no idea how much materials would be involved in such an undertaking....the planning...the depth of the water...FORGET THAT !! ....come up with something else!"   The man thinks again for awhile and says "OK then you can't make my bridge for me then how about this....i want to know all there is to know about women...you know everything that makes them happy..everything that makes them sad...I want to know everything that makes them tick"   so the Genie says "Would you like to have 2 lanes or 4 ??

For Daddy------"There will be dancing in Heaven"

From: LaurenR_1(Original Message) - - - - Sent: 4/24/2002 5:06 PM When the Lord calls you to the light there will be sorrow here on Earth- But there will be dancing in Heaven.   When your time has passed and you are at the gate There will be many tears on Earth But there will be dancing in Heaven.   There will be one less hero on this Earth When you take your place in Gods house. As your new angel wings open and you soar free up into the arms of God there will be many hearts missing you But there will be dancing in Heaven. YOU will be dancing in Heaven.        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   Lauren         4- 24-02 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ From: (ME) Þrèçiõûs Mélödÿ - - - - Sent: 4/25/2002 12:00 AM That is Precious Lauren, Very good. And it is sooooooooooooooooo true. I am sure that God is waiting for your dancing father with open arms.

i wrote another poem. i hope you like this one too!! BY Grumpy

From: grumpy(Original Message) - - - - Sent: 4/23/2002 9:58 PM   I once ran away from life, from myself I could not hide. but I feel so much better now since I hung my head and cried. I had to stop and then re-group, become myself again. I know that I will love one day, its not "if" but "when". my heart went into meltdown mode, and I went crash and burn. like the phoenix I will rise again. my lesson i have learned. my heart is now a prisoner, under lock and key. it will take a special love to let my heart be free. please don't get me wrong my friend, I want to be in love. but it has to be the real thing, ordained by god above. good things come to those who wait, and I'm a patient man. I know true love will come my way... at least that is the plan. I know I fall in love too fast, its happened more than once. and then when I was pushed away, I felt just like a dunce. history repeats itself, it happened yet again. the next time that I fall in love, I know she'll be a friend. she'll tell me if I move too fast, but not get scared and run. she won't want to make it end when we've only just begun. she'll tell me if I'm overboard or when I'm out of line. she won't want to run away when things are going fine. she'll want me in her life today, tomorrow and for life. she will commit herself to me, one day become my wife. side by side together we'll age, hand in hand grow old. we'll give ourselve to one another, forever to have and hold. but there is something on my mind... a detail that I missed. this fantasy woman I write about... I doubt if she exists. ================================================================== From: catherine47 - - - - Sent: 4/30/2002 11:41 AM For surely love will come your way. If not right now it will someday. For surely as such words I speak. Thier someone in this life who still as you seek.  A  special person one just like you believe this do. A beauty like yours shines brightly like the northern star. Your inner core of who you are. Makes you so very special by afar. For surely love will find in you the best God created this is true... =================================================================== From: boldunclebill - - - - Sent: 4/30/2002 1:16 PM   wow!!!! that an awesome poem grump,i know how u feel,and i bet there will be some others in the room that u touched also,just remember,GENSIS 2:18,THE LORD SAID,"IT IS NOT GOOD FOR MAN TO BE ALONE.I WILL MAKE A HELPER SUITABLE FOR HIM." he still in the process of makin her,and she's out there....bold uncle bill

Believe by Cath

From: catherine47 - - - - Sent: 4/23/2002 6:38 AM At times one wonders what loves meant to be. Giving the heart to someone so totally free. The  heart, it then breaks in two. The pain of hurt, rejection, makes one so blue. Wondering if love will ever find one again. Perhaps it will with a newer friend. That part of the heart that withers away so. If its kept locked and guarded can it ever again know that there is still the chance for love to grow.  If the heart can learn to  trust again and still believe, Then theres a chance that love again a heart will see. For someone can awaken that sleeping quiet sad heart.  To  accept us  for just ourselves from the start. The restless dormant heart will again grow strong. For now theres renewal we again belong.

Questions by Msroulette

From: msroulette  (Original Message) Sent: 4/21/2002 5:14 AM Romantic lady thought I should share this with our online family and friends, so here goes:   Why is it so hard to find Love? Why do I look for it endlessly? Is it really so rewarding? Do I have to lose myself to gain that reward? Who is able to Love? do we all have it within us? Why is it that those that are so willing and ready to receive it... get hurt so bad? Is it really worth it?   The emotional rollercoaster called Love, One minute high in the clouds... the next so low that crawling is a step up.   Am I better off learning to be satisfied without true companionship?   As I grow older, I find myself saying more and more... that I am better off without it. And yet, I still open myself to the pain I know it will bring.   Why do I do that to myself? Do I deserve it? Have I been searching for something I am certain will never be found? Am I supposed to be happy without finding that special someone? Is it possible for that someone to exist?   I used to believe with my whole being... that there is someone out there for me. But more and more I ask the questions. Ever losing my faith that Love will find me.   I can't make it happen, I can only only choose to give of myself... and hope that I receive the same in return.   Do I want to become a cold, heartless being that doesn't believe in Love? Or do I hold onto the idea... that something that has eluded me for so long actually exists?   Herein lies the dilemna, A dilemna I am not sure I can figure out   So I shall remain in limbo, yearning to not have to feel, and still trying to give of myself... and continuing the heartbreaks.   Fate, bring me that special someone... Before I finally lose myself... to the coldness of not feeling. ================================================ From: ME Sent: 4/21/2002 1:39 PM Just One Word to Describe this Poem  Beautiful From: Waiting4MyRedemption Sent: 4/23/2002 8:50 AM Love comes as fast as you can think her name Its as silent as a whisper Strong as mother nature Faint as the tiny heartbeat created Its not pain , nor work It reaches so far down Seeping into the crevices of your soul I wish I could tell you when it will hit you If it will last I cant even tell you if its worth it But the numbness that fills my days Tears that fill my nights Tell me its as sure as time We shall feel it all over again Then you can look back Just to ponder all these extrapolations Over and over gain As sure as you dare to live So will you dare to love Dare sweet Laura , dare From: msroulette Sent: 4/24/2002 7:10 AM Thank you my dear Korrie....my kindest, best friend.  You are awsome, I luvs ya :-) From: «Qựέέή◦ộƒ◦ђέårТ§» (ME) Sent: 4/24/2002 11:04 AM All these talented people in our little home... Keep up the good work! Fantastic Writings Guys!! From: LoneJakyl Sent: 4/24/2002 4:35 PM Yeah - since there are so many talented writers in the groups - somebody check out my stuff and let me know what you think!! http://www.alancontino.com/poetry-prose.html Your Own, Gothabillie Man ===========================================================