PAIN!

Written by someone who gave me permission to post it here!! PAIN Day to day, I go though life, Dealing with pain and strife. I end up making mistakes, And trying to learn how to survive. I love without being loved, I care for ones who could care less. Being alone becomes a part of daily life, No matter what I try to do, It never lessens the hurt inside. So many days I just want to die, Give up the whole fight. So much pain and grief in my mind, That I just can not shake. Pain and hatred, Anger and grief. The torture that I put myself through. The anguish that I let people put me through. Violence. Anger. Torture. Fear. I want to kill, I want to die. The only thing that keeps me alive, Is the love I have for my daughter inside. One million things in my mind. I can never begin to describe, The hurt that I hold deep inside. What is life, what is love, I really dont know. So many people tell me they know, That they understand. If this is the truth, Why dont they help me to understand? I just wish that I could find a way, To cope, With the pain. r.o. ================================================================== From: AppealingCatherine_49 - - - - Sent: 5/19/2003 1:25 PM This poem speaks to me these words I like to say. You have inner strength to guide you through each day. You have a heart created by Gods wonderous hands above. It overflows with rich goodness by the capacity you can love. Nothing in ones life is measured to each thier own due. The real tests of such lessons lies with inside of just you. Tell yourself as I would say if I knew you too, your one of Gods finest creations this is so true. Smile reflecting on the love that within you resides. You will make boundless leaps and the greatest of strides. So smile this moment know that as I send this you way. Your the best person inside that never goes a stray. ear your heart filled with love, keeping showing the world what I see. The best heart God created in you that can ever be. So now im done thanking you for listening ear. Know that the worlds still a good place where we all can still see or hear.

Friends: by Wickedjester

Who are your friends and how do you keep them? A friend is someone who cares and will be there for you. A friend will listen to your problems  and say things will be ok. They will not judge you for what you do or say. When you need a shoulder to lean on they are there for you. And when no one else is around and your feeling down your friend is near. Even when you get mad and say things mean a friend will blow it off as you will see. And that you don't believe what you hear cause sometimes ,someone doesn't want this friendship near. They may try to ruin this friendship you see by makin comments or saying things. So if you have doubt no need to worry just ask and the truth will come out. When you need to smile or jsut shed a tear look for me a i will be there. So i say this to you don't be angry in anyway cause you may lose a friend that way. Trust your heart and you will see,yes you have a friend in me. =================================================================== From: ME - - - - 5/17/03   Without friends our lives would be in turmoil.. There would be no love to share, No heart to care..... The world would be in chaos, and utter despair. Destruction will be everywhere. Trees and flowers will no longer be...... Rivers, Lakes, Ocean and the sea would all be dried up and just a hole in the ground..... Friends bring nature to life, They fill the holes in the ground with tears of joy and sadness, They fix the hurt and the destruction....... they take away the despair...... They will plant trees and flowers in your heart of doom.... And most of all....... Friends will give you life without end....!

My Special Friend

You make me laugh wheni want to cry. You're honest with me you'd never lie. You make my fears disappear,you make my problems seem so clear. If she breaks my heart or hurts me so,you're there for me. I'll always know. I hope our friendship never ends... You'll always be my special friend!   From: Wickedjester22 - - - - 5/17/03 =================================================================== From: ME - - - - 5/17/03 11:53am   Special friends are far and few between, Becomining all but extinct! If you're lucky enough to have a special person in your life, treasure it for all it's worth. Special friends are caring and understanding. Something we all need once in awhile.... Special friends are always thinking of you. Sometimes we can't even think for ourselves..... Special friends loves us dearly unconditionally. We all need to be loved in some shape or form... And the best love of all is from our special friends...... They won't break your heart.... They'll only wipe away the tears.... They'll hold you in your arms to squeeze away the pain.... When she denies your love and sends your heart in deep despair, A Special friend will lend you theirs to fill that emptiness....   Again I feel the need to add words to yours.... Your soul holds deep love and whoever you end up with as a soulmate will be the luckiest Lady in the world... I wish you the best of happiness in your heart's quest!

A Hearts love

A heart is not a play thing. a heart is not a game. but if you want if broken just give it to a dame.   Women mess around with men. to see what makes them tick but when it comes to kissing they do it just for kicks.   Women never give their hearts away they take all men for fools they wait til men gives theirs away and then they play it cool.   Don't ever fall in love my friend you'll find it never pays it causes broken hearts it happens everyday.   You'll wonder where she is at night you'll wonder if she is true one minute you'll be happy the next minute you'll be blue.   Each chance you have to see her your heart begins to dance you world revolves around her there nothing like romance   When it start you dont know you worry day and night you see my friend your losing her it never works out right   Love is right but it hurts so bad the price you pay is so high if I could choose between life or death I rather choose to die   So see my friend don't fall in love you'll get hurt before it's thorough you see my friend I ought to know because i fell for you From: Wickedjester - - - - 5/17/03 =================================================================== From: ME - - - - 5/17/03 6:06am   Sad to say that you're words bring a tear to my eye! To give up the most precious of all gifts is so devastating. Love is fragile as your heart is fragile and needs to be taken care of with kindess and helpfulness A Heart is fragile as you can see..... No one is safe from it's power... It is meant to be cherished and cared for..not hurt and played. It's easily broken, It easily bleeds! Falling in Love is hard to do when there's so much pain..   The more a heart is used, abused, broken, The harder it is for love to enter there!!!! We must remember that love is the cure of all despair!   LET LOVE SHINE! =================================================================== From: Snaky - - - - 5/17/03 1:42pm Wicked~~~~~~ Absolutely heartfelt.....great writing/outstanding (((((((((((huGs)))))))))) SSSSnaKy    Love like youve never been hurt.... =================================================================== From: SNOWANGEL1934 - - - - 8/10/03 8:11am   WICKED HOW TRUE. U HAVE JUST PUT INTO WORDS THE WAY I HAVE BEEN FEELING. FOR U IT WAS FEMALE AND ME A MALE. I DON;T THINK THERE IS ANY WORSE PAIN THAN A HEART THAT HAS BEEN BROKEN.   IF U WANT TO TALK PLEASE E-MAIL ME AND MAYBE WE CAN HELP EACH OTHER. I INOW FOR ONE I SURE COULD USE A LITTLE HELP

Whatever I have I share with you!!

Take my Hand, I will lead you faithfully. Take my Heart, It will feel for you. Take my Spirit, It will help you soar. Take my home, you will be welcomed. Take my shoulder, You will be comforted. Take my love, It will help you in times of need. Take my Life! It's the greatest of all these gifts I share with you; my dearest friends, my Family. For each of you are deserving of these and more given to us from Heaven......... Without these gifts to offer, I am nothing, With these gifts, I am everything. Whatever I have I share with you. For you are more then just friends and family; You are the breath of life in my soul!! =========================== From: Wickedjester22 - - - - 5/16/2003 THAT WAS NICE AND VERY TOUCHING =========================== From: ME - - - - 5/16/2003 Awwww Thank You Wicked for your kind heartfelt words...I write these poems as a gift to all my friends and family... I'm glad you enjoy them so... =========================== From: MADbrew39 - - - - 5/16/2003 Very nice. I saved this one to a special folder. ===========================

I'LL BE THERE

I'll be there when your down and out even when you run when you ought to walk. I'll be there to lend an ear when you want to talk even if your mad i can see in your heart I'll be there to give a hug and make you smile plus wipe the tears away from a crying child I'll be there to tell you things will be ok and lend a hand to make the pain go away I'll be there  to give you friends for support even in the eyes of a human court I'll be there to help you fall in love with someone i sent you from heaven above. I'll be there to be a friend when in need call on me and I will be there  for you indeed So when in doubt,no need to shout just look around and I'll be there   Wickedjester22

God's gift

God knew that each of us would need help from day to day. So he gave us prayer as a gift that help soothes our troubles away. Surely as he hears each prayer  that is being sent for you. He'll bless your heart and send you strength as only he can do. When all is lost and you fell like no one cares turn to him and he is there. He brings people together  for reasons unknown even when sad and all alone. He gives us lessons that we need to learn to help on our way so we can get threw life from day to day. Some our hard and some simple,some make you happy and some make you cry,but it's nothing you can't handle even when you die. For he is there when you need him most to answer you request even if it's not for the best. He let's you see for yourself,and make a decision to stay or ask for help. Some may say well that ain't fair,and ask why don't  God care. He lets you see which way you go and makes suggestion that let you know. He sends you friends to help along the way ones you asked for when you prayed. So you see God's gift to you was friendship that came from above and he sent it to you with all his love.                                      (Orig written by Wickedjester22---- 5/15/03 2:45pm) =================================================================== From: ME - - - - 5/17/03 11:57am   Words to live by! Friends are God's little miracle of light! They are the greatest gift of all...... The most precious creation from God's own hands...

Feelings

Feelings,Where  do  they come  from,and how do they get here.They come  down from heaven as rain in the form of tears.They come in all shapes and sizes.Some  big some small,some good and some bad.There are so many feelings you see,even ones that make you sad.How do i start,and where do i begin.I know this feeling must come from within.It must come from the heart and it must be true.These  three  little words that say I Love  you.                                                                     (orig written by Wickedjester22 - - - -  5/12/03) ===================================================================== From: ME - - - - 5/17/03 12:05pm   Feelings are from God's own hand.... They are the windows to our soul.... They are the gift that allows us to laugh, to cry, to believe. They are the anchor that our heart relies on to be our own special person...

Reflections

My face is getting lines My body wearing thin<o:p></o:p> The outside is my armor<o:p></o:p> To protect all that is within.<o:p></o:p> <o:p> </o:p> Sometimes I am laughing<o:p></o:p> While inside I am dieing<o:p></o:p> Outside there’s a smile<o:p></o:p> Covering the inside crying.<o:p></o:p> <o:p> </o:p> My soul reaches out<o:p></o:p> For the girl buried deep inside<o:p></o:p> Robbed of her innocence<o:p></o:p> The pain made her hide.<o:p></o:p> <o:p> </o:p> My heart cries loudly<o:p></o:p> For the sons that are gone<o:p></o:p> There is a lot of pain<o:p></o:p> Even after this long<o:p></o:p> <o:p> </o:p> When I die, I hope they say<o:p></o:p> This life I survived it all<o:p></o:p> Even when I was run down<o:p></o:p> I refused to let myself fall.<o:p></o:p>   ©1999 by Elizabeth La Monda  (Another one by Liz - 4/14/03 8:04pm)

If You Knew Me

If you knew me Would you walk down the country lane Would you share your dreams At night whisper my name? If you knew me Would you hold me at night Talk for hours But never fight? If you knew me Would life still be fun Would you give me your heart And never run? If you knew me Would you be proud Would my words be heard with feeling And your laughter be loud? If you knew me Would I also know you  Posted by "Liz" 4/14/2003 8:02pm =================================================================== 4/15/2003 12:24am WICKEDJESTER22....THAT WAS PRETTY GOOD TO READ

Angel and the Icewolf!

Written: 4/7/2003 10:00 PM The Angel sat once again on the Mountain where they met, silently remembering a heart of ice melting into a heart of gold. Oh how she wished to see him again just to see his smile once more!! Oh how her heart ached for the gentleness of one so dear. She remembered quite well the day they met upon this very mountain.......He with his heart dark and unhappy and her just sitting on her cloud watching his self destruction....... How she just had to come down to ease his crying soul. His eyes had sparkled when he saw her golden wings drift toward him from above...... How her glow washed away his dark heart replacing it with one of pure happiness!! How she now wished to see that smile once again, but that is not to be! He was in no need of her no more........His heart had filled to overflowing with happiness!! Yet still she longed to see him one last time, just for a gentle hug or two. Tears streamed down her cheeks as she gathered her strength to make her final flight! One last look at that mountain top and through tears of pain and a broken heart she made her way back to the cloud from which she began! Secretly hoping to one day to be drawn again from her safe cloud to help an Icewolf in a land far away!! Away she flew as she had arrived gently like the wind........ Forever remembering The Angel and The Icewolf!! Written: 8/25/2003 1:53 PM From her cloud the Angel sighed and was inspired to take a peek upon the mountain she so adored, When suddenly from out of nowhere she saw him! She gasped not believing what she saw. She had to look again.... Her eyes flew open wide and faster than eagles she flew to the mountain. For indeed there he was, her precious Icewolf of long ago. Oh how she had missed his gentleness, his kind inspiring words, she was speechless! Slowly she began to speak and suddenly it was like time had stopped, all her memories kept flooding back. Time flew by so quickly and soon her icewolf had to leave. She was sad to see him go but happy that once again her heart leaped for joy at the sight of one so dear! A promise to meet again soon was made and off her dear icewolf from whence he had arrived. And with a new happy heart, the Angel floated back to the clouds to wait for his return.. She sat for a moment and drank every drop of their conversation, submitting every word into her memory! Her icewolf had returned, she had not expected this miracle of hope. She sat upon her cloud with a permanent smile upon her face, one that had not been there for so long she thought it was lost. To find it again after all this time was truely a vision of the greatest of all miracles. Written: 8/25/2003 2:48 PM Miracle of Hope....Has now returned!  Tis I to speak of such miracle of hope. Never had I expected to see thee again. A knight in shining armor, of that I am certain. This miracle truely needed at time when sadness seemed to be winning. Tis joy and happiness felt when thee are near. The stars above much brighter since thy return. Rivers run much gentler now that yer here by my side. Tears flow gently down my soft cheeks at the thought of you being once again in my presence. I sigh at the memory of thee upon the mountain, waiting for the vision from the clouds. Tis me who also sits upon this cloud waiting til our next meeting. Take care dear sweet miracle of hope. Written: 8/27/2003 1:42 AM  A Special Gift of words to a special Icewolf! What beauty lies in a wolf of ice...kind hearted and true is the soul within. Nothing to compare with the specialness within this heart of a golden wolf. Tis an Angel that has brought this gift upon a wolf so dear, so sweet, so full of words of sweet melody. Speechless to no end of such beauty hidden within this Icewolf. The beauty that lies in this Icewolf is one not to ever be surpassed! It's a gift from an Angel, ever so sweet to bestow these special words to one so dear. "Dear sweet Icewolf,  you're the dearest of souls; One I'll forever hold closest to my heart!! Written: 8/27/2003 7:53 AM It is with great honor that I welcome the return of one so dear. Words just can't describe how joyous an occasion this is!

For Our Military Folks.

From: AppealingCatherine_49 - - - - Sent: 3/29/2003 12:44 PM As I fly my flag its you I see.  knowing your there protecting me. I can only imagine how hard it is to be so far away.  From the loved ones at home out of harms way. We support and thankyou because its important for all for us you right now there your job to do.  Fighting for freedom ours, yours, and other folks too.  War is not what anyone wants, but at the cost of freedom, peace, for us all.  We Thankyou with hearts that care for serving protetcing answering the call.  We can only watch the news and reading papers to see, what events transpire as they unfold.  Make us keep you daily in our prayers close to God above to hold.  One day this im unsure of when it will be.  You be coming back home to your families to see.  What you have done there shows American compassion the way that we care.  So as my hands now I fold in prayer Gods way.  I will ask with my heart God to bless and protect keeping you safe, each and every new day.  I pray for peace and your safe return home to us all.  I'm Thankful for your depth of courage and such valor, as you answered your country's call.

Words For Thought!!

serenity_IX (Original Message)Sent: 3/21/2003 8:45 AM Date: Fri, 14 Mar 2003 12:30:43 -0500   Do you think YOU will pass it on???           Hmmm... One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting.   "Yes, sir, I just caught the world full of people down there. Set me a trap, used bait. I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em all!"   "What are you going to do with them?" Jesus asked.   Satan replied, "Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!"   "And what will you do when you get done with them?" Jesus asked.   "Oh, I'll kill 'em," Satan glared proudly.   "How much do you want for them?" Jesus asked.   "Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no good. Why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you!! You don't want those people!!"   "How much?" He asked again.   Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, "All your tears, and all your blood."   Jesus said, "DONE!" Then He paid the price. Isn't it funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell.   Isn't it funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but question what the Bible says.   Isn't it funny how everyone wants to go to heaven provided they do not have to believe, think, say, or do anything the Bible says. Or is it scary?   Isn't it funny how someone can say "I believe in God" but still follow Satan (who, by the way, also "believes" in God).   Isn't it funny how you can send a thousand jokes through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing. Isn't it funny how the lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but the public discussion of Jesus is suppressed in the school and workplace.   Isn't it funny how someone can be so fired up for Christ on Sunday, but be an invisible Christian the rest of the week.   Are you laughing?   Isn't it funny how when you go to forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it to them. Isn't it funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me than what God thinks of me.   Will YOU pass this on? .... I did.

Fury

From: ¤°¤§îmþ£ÿ®ª¶éý¤°¤ (Original Message) - - - - 3/8/2003 7:45pm Frustration pulsing through my body as anger rages ripping away at my very fiber. I scream and nobody hears. I cry and nobody listens. This pain racing through my body a constant thirst to feel you beside me, holding me. I scream and still nobody hears. I cry and still nobody listens. Does anyone care about this slow burning torture that I myself am feeling? This anger coursing through my veins? The frustration lacing itself around my soul squeezing it until hopefully there is no more? I scream. I cry. They’ve heard me. They’ve listened to me. They simply do not feel it, nor do they care. ====================================================== From: ME (Original Message) - - - - 3/13/2003 5:16am  I have been in this situation many many times and, I tend to agree that we go through life in silence, even tho we're screaming in utter agony, at the bitterness of our lives. Seems a shame that no one stops to care or listen anymore to feelings of those living in such turmoil....... Maybe that's the problem; That there's no more caring, feeling, hearing people in this world!! =================================================================== From: serenity_XII (Original Message) - - - - 3/13/2003 10:18am I totally agree with you!!!!! ================================================================== From: MADbrew39 (Original Message) - - - - 3/13/2003 10:45am There are many folks out there that, see, care and do something about other's fury. We usually do so silently and with conviction. Fury is not good for you. Better to foster an attitude of 'Thanksliving.' That is, consider your surroundings. You are an American. You have hot and cold running water in at lest a two rooms in your home maybe 3 or more. You have separate rooms to sleep in, cook in, bath in, play in, and watch TV in. You have access to cheap, rapid transportation. You have more than you can eat or can easily get it. You have so much time on your hands, you can squander it on fury. You can openly make fun of your politicians anywhere, anytime. You can choose to agree with me, or disagree to almost any degree. We eat, breath and take for granted freedoms and riches the vast majority of the rest of the world consider unattainable, or often cannot even imagine. Life is grand. I pray that your fury is short, sweet and ultimately chanelled into something productive and wonderful. ================================================================= From: AppealingCatherine_49 - - - - 3/14/2003 50:48am  At any given moment in one's life. Thier at time races within pain and strife. How I cope get through such difficult days, is working with kids they show me the way. Through the smile in their eyes, and the laughter in their voice. I see life as it meant to be lived, I only can make the choice. I choose to try daily to work that much more, to be nicer to people even if they make me upset or sore. Yes there still are out there people who care, not all people are blind most of themselves still share. Hold your head up strong do the best you can do. Look at each heart people wear, you see this too. There are good folks who will help us along the way, with a strong helping hand, or kind words that they  may say. So if helps just a little accept this  smile from me. If you need a helping hand just ask, I be there you will see.

My Nothingness!

"Nothing comes from nothing, nothing ever could....."   So from nothing I give nothing!! My heart is slowly dying with nothing left to give. How sad this day has become when nothing's all I am. Nothing but despair, an emptiness of the person I once was. No smiles to appear no more, no laughter to sing happiness! Only utter sadness to fill my soul, quiet despair has taken it's toll!! Stars and sunshine no longer exist...Only grey clouds and darkness in my mist. I fear all hope is lost for me, nothing left to hope for!! Why must the suffering go on with me. Why can't smiles return to me!! Must I hold back these tears of mine to hide away from my turmoil. Will these tears be the death of me for keeping them hid so long from thee. Oh the Depths of despair I see, will there be mo more light for me.. Am I destined to live my suffering here? Will the sun ever shine again? Will I always and forever be nothing more than a Nothing me? ============================================ From: AppealingCathering_49 - - - - 2/9/2003 Sometimes the darkness over whelms one, there becomes present a emptiness inside. Life it feels seems is full of dispairity. A sunshine arises as we look intensly upon it beholding the wonder and beauty, the darkness slowly drifts off away. The light warmth, it radiates opening one again too see the world with new eyes, the part inside of emptyness, fills with a new awakening beckons one forward. This is the cycle of a life, just as cycle of seasons in nature. Their is always new beginings and awakenings. ============================================

Friendship

From: brattykelli - - - - 1/15/03 9:58am LOVE starts with a SMILE, grows with a KISS, and ends with a TEAR. DON'T cry over anyone who won't cry over you. Good FRIENDS are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget. You can only go as far as you push. ACTIONS speak louder than words. The HARDEST thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. DON'T let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.  LIFE'S SHORT. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it. A BEST FRIEND is like a four leaf clover, HARD TO FIND and LUCKY TO HAVE. Some people make the world SPECIAL just by being in it. BEST FRIENDS are the siblings God forgot to give us.  When it HURTS to look back, and you're SCARED to look ahead, you can look beside you and your BEST FRIEND will be there. TRUE FRIENDSHIP "NEVER" ENDS. Friends are FOREVER. Good friends are like STARS You don't always see them, but you know they are ALWAYS THERE. DON'T frown. You never know who is falling in love with your smile. What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry? Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them. Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end. Most people walk in and out of your life, but only FRIENDS leave footprints in your heart. Remember, every minute spent angry is sixty seconds of happiness wasted. AWESOME PRAYER: May today there be peace within you. May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be. "I believe that friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly."

12 Rules of Life

Posted by: brattykelli - - - - 1/13/03 12:12am ================================================= Sometimes we just need to Remember what the 12 Rules of Life really are... 1. Never Give Yourself a Haircut After Three Margaritas. 2. You need only two tools: WD-40 and Duct Tape.      If it doesn't move and it should, use WD-40.      If it moves and shouldn't, use the duct tape. 3. The five most essential words for a healthy, vital relationship are       "I apologize" and "you are right." 4. Everyone seems normal until you get to know them. 5. Never pass up an opportunity to pee. 6. If he/she says that you are too good for him/her -- believe them. 7. Learn to pick your battles;      Ask yourself, "Will this matter one year from now? How about one month?  One week?  One day?" 8. When you make a mistake, make amends immediately.       It's easier to eat crow while it's still warm. 9. If You Woke up Breathing, Congratulations! You have another chance!   10. Living Well Really is The Best Revenge.        Being miserable because of a bad or former relationship just might       mean that the other person was right about you. 11. Work is Good, but it's Not That Important.  Money is Nice, But You Can't Take It With You. Statistics show most people don't live to spend all they saved -- some die even before they retire. And everything we have isn't really ours -- it was given to us by God; He just lets us borrow it while we're here....even our kids. 12. And Finally ... Be Really Good To Your Family And/Or Friends.         You never know when you are going to need them to empty your bedpan.

Christmas think on it some

From: Cathie48 - - - - Sent: 12/23/2002 2:20 PM It was a quiet moment before christmas, Reflecting on a small thought. Is Christmas just about gifts, presents we all bought? As I grow older christmas' true message still rings clear. Christmas is what we do each day of the year. For all the money can't make christmas, not when its inside you or me. The key lies within us that special feeling of giving of just ones self. This is richness of true christmas wealth. The sharing of hearts being kind in the smallest even of way. Makes christmas flourish beyond just this one day. So think about its blessings, People are not truly counted in monetary value you know, Count that good feeling thats inside just you as it grows. Then you have sought out your own answer, what does christmas mean just to you. That savoring feeling lingers then all the year through. Do something for someone to just make them smile, they do then for another, thats makes christmas the most worthwhile.

My Heart's Secret Thoughts

I feel so alone today, so frightened and scared. Wondering how you feel bout me. My heart lies in a box of gold and glitter waiting for your love of me. Am I too soon or am I too late? No sign I see of being loved... At least not of which is obvious... No words, no Roses have I seen... Caring and kindness: Yes those are there.....but something seems to still be amiss... The feeling     that I belong within your heart, that I'm a part of your life... This which seems to be missing... at least from what I see. Why do I cause myself to suffer so at these thoughts of fear... Wishing to be loved and to belong being my greatest wish of all. "I love you" seems to be so far away...As does Roses and feelings of belonging. Fear and Anxiety are what i'm feeling now...Doesn't make sense to be this way. Am I capable of being loved or is it just wishful thinking... Lonliness is what I feel yet there is someone near(I think). Oh How my thoughts wander so...This fear that grips my entire soul... What am I to do to take this fear away. Maybe nothing but sit and wait for my shining knight to make his move... Patiently, fearfully,anxiously will I wait... Even though my hearts hurts so deeply at not knowing what to do... IF ONLY I KNEW WHERE THE KEY TO MY HEART BOX LIES... *sighs* =================================================================== From: Tractor630 - - - - 12/22/02 Wow great poem tractor =================================================================== From: SmokelessBeast - - - - 12/22/02 What does one say? I am the lost one. =================================================================== From: AppealingCatherine_49 - - - - 12/22/02   What does one say. One can only say what the heart feels in the most honest way, The heart can express what words one can't say, by the touch upon us in a tender true way. The look with in a persons eyes, these are the doors to ones inner soul. Its when your heart connects to that heart you are richer more full. So what does one say, one only has to open wide there arms, embracing tightly closely that one they truly care for. Thats what one says, when there are no words any more.   Girl friend I loved your poem, and I love you..too.. ===================================================================

LATE FEE CHARGES

My Aunt died this past January. Citi Bank billed her for February and March for their monthly service charge on her credit card, and then added late fees and interest on the monthly charge...the balance had been $0.00... now was somewhere around $60.00) I placed the following phone call to CitiBank: Me: "I am calling to tell you that she died in January." CitiBank: "The account was never closed and the late fees and charges still apply." Me: "Maybe, you should turn it over to collections..." CitiBank: "Since it is 2 months past due, it already has been." Me: "So, what will they do when they find out she is dead?" CitiBank: "Either report her account to the frauds division, or report her to the credit bureau...maybe both!" Me: "Do you think God will be mad at her?" CitiBank:"...excuse me .....?" Me: "Did you just get what I was telling you.... the part about her being dead?" CitiBank: "Sir, you'll have to speak to my supervisor!" (Supervisor gets on the phone) Me: ''I'm calling to tell you, she died in January." CitiBank: "The account was never closed and the late fees and charges still apply." Me: "You mean you want to collect from her estate?" CitiBank: ".....(stammer)" .... "Are you her lawyer?" Me: "No, I'm her great nephew." (Lawyer info given...) CitiBank: "Could you fax us a certificate of death?" Me: "Sure." ( Fax number is given ) ( After they get the fax. ) CitiBank: "Our system just isn't setup for death..." Me: "Oh..." CitiBank: "I don't know what more I can do to help..." Me: "Well... if you figure it out, great! If not, you could just keep billing her... I suppose... don't really think she will care...." CitiBank: "Well...the late fees and charges do still apply." Me: "'Would you like her new billing address?" CitiBank: "That might help." Me: " ( Odessa Memorial Cemetery #### Hwy 129 and plot number given. ) CitiBank: "Sir, that's a cemetery!" Me: "What do you do with dead people on your planet?!!"