Bitchin

Ha! I've learned something very important. Friends are much more than friends to me. Growing up I've always understood that a significant other should always love you deeper, respect you more and treat you better than a "best, close, Friend". That was always the difference in lovers & friendships... Or so I thought. Well, in view of my last 3 SL relationships, they've all been fakes. For in this case. My friends have been there for me more, have treated me better, respected me more, loved me deeper than any "loved one" I've been with.  In fact, I have phone numbers of my closest dearest friends who aren't afraid to trust me. Those are the ones I value most. My friends are special, they are more than friends to me. It's these people who care the most, respect me the most, and always have me at hello. If fate/destiny intervened and opened the line, it's one I know would be safe to cross. Perhaps that's the real key. Give up those who are fake, and stick with the real friends/loved ones who honestly respect the person you already are. They're the ones who have you in their hearts. They're the ones who know you better than you may even know yourself. Truth is the key. Those who really love are those who take the chance to know you. They respect you and treat you like a Queen. They're true blue and don't run. To me, I refuse to keep RL and SL separate. You can't. What's real in SL is in fact real in RL! If you're not ready to take a relationship outside of SL, don't have one inside SL either. It's hard to just Role Play a love affair without it dripping into the RL world. So to those who only wish to play the game in SL! GO AWAY You fake! I want a real person instead. Someone who has my heart in their best interest... Treat it well, and it will be the best thing that ever happened to you.

Thoughts of Thee!

Unable to sleep I think of thee. Wondering if you think of me. Guarding what I say to you. Wishing my arms around you. Keeping feelings away from thee. Hoping they don't slip from me. Trying to read a mind unclear. Hoping to again hold you near. I sigh in thoughts of you. Remembering the sight of you. Wondering what you want of me. Trying to get a grasp of thee. Sadness creeps over me. Must push away from me. Remembering the dance of love. Gracefully smooth like a dove. Unable to sleep I think of thee. Wondering if you think of me. Dreaming of your face near mine. Perhaps one day you'll be mine.

Redemption

Stab, thrust, stab. Point of steel. Sharp! Deep Deep Deep. Thrusting into heart. Stagger, loss, blood. Splattered across floor. Eyes flutter, eyes stop. Shallow breath, slower. Dark, Shattered, lifeless. Body, empty, alone. Angels calling from above. Come home, my child; come home. Clouds, Fluffy, Float. Drifting upon soft clouds. Stripped away of blood, Clothed in pearly white. Wings, Golden, Pure. Placed upon her back. Eyes wide open blue. Watching over thee. Love strengthens. Humanity saved. Memories sweet. Loves embrace. Whatever thou thinks of me, Thy heart will hold thee up. Smiling down upon earth. Crying deep with earth. Secret thoughts fill heart. Secret tears fill soul. Secret love deepens. Hidden forever in clouds. © LadyJane All Rights Reserved

Waiting...

Hands folded upon they breast. Laid upon the heart in rest. Single rose in fingertips. Enclosed within a shrine of glass. Flowers laid upon her feet. Tears on glass felt like rain. A heart lay in lonliness. The sun and moon, succumb to weep. As on earth its' creatures deep. Nothing much to stop these tears. Waiting for gift of fairytale. A kiss upon soft petal lips. To awaken from her slumber sleep. A gift of life and love renewed. The only cure unbroken heart. Awaken in her dress of blue, Underneath the willow tree, She found herself in dispair. Realizing the end was near. Waiting for her shiny carriage. To wisk her far away with thee. To shoulder her pain and calm her fears. Only to find, an empty carriage. Dispair and tears engulfed her soul. Remembering only its pending death. Wishing for gentle eyes of love, To pierce through her icy stare. Waiting for her own redemption; She fell prostrate upon the ground, Unable to stop the sounds of weeping. Listening to the whispering willow. She gave in to this utter weeping. Allowed the willow to shadow her. Leaned up against it's sturdy trunk. Eyes forward, looking ahead... WAITING.....

Being friends with X's

Found this quote on Madi's Myspace site and it says it all quite well for me. The very reason I don't make friends with ex's! ~having the love of your life break up with you and say "we can still be friends", is like having your dog die and your mother saying "you can still keep it."~

Silence is Golden

Silence is golden says the sun; It is within silence I shine your world. Silence is majestic says the moon; I create shiny waters in the darkness. Silence is brilliant says the stars; I create twinkles without even a sound. Silence is grounded says the earth; I combine the power of sun, moon and stars. Silence is when thoughts connect, Silence is when the soul shines, Silence is when calmness enters, Without silence, headaches occur. The greatest love of all: is sitting under the stars in silence. walking hand in hand in silence. listening to nature without interruptions. I hate when people try to force me to communicate when I do so much better in my printed words. Seems a waste of time when I really much rather become one with nature and silence. In a virtual world some prefer to just sit around on a sim and talk talk talk. That isn't what I came to SL for. I came to learn, to explore. To experience life. I can never just stare at a screen for hours on end. I must work on things, build, organize, keep my mind focused and direct. Learn everything there is to learn. I research things on my own rather than ask questions. Questions are for those things that are too difficult to find on your own. It's after exhausting all other avenues that finally you give in and ask. It's almost better to just give up. Become a cold hearted ***** without soul. I already wear my heart on my sleeve, I don't need to describe what it looks like too. Look at the children who love so unconditionally and free. They don't need communication to express that. They do so with each giggle that comes from their lips. The smiles they show when they're happy. True, honest love doesn't need communication. It needs understanding. Reminds me of a relative who had no voice at all, literally. They couldn't speak, but still managed to snag the love of their life. Their "communication" consisted of flowers, smiling, eye gazing, and love letters. No spoken words, no conversation, just expressions of love for each other. They didn't need to know much about each other either. Love took care of that. They had 75yrs to learn about who each was. It was the most magical relationship one could ever imagine. That's what real love means to me. One day someone will come along and be that magical to sweep me off my feet. Until then, I refuse to become someone I do not believe in.

Tips on Relationships

"This next tip may seem counterintuitive: fight more. According to psychologists, couples who don’t fight are the ones who have affairs. Conflict means there’s passion there. So go ahead and vent your frustrations and afterward, engage in something physical, like a bike ride. Fighting and exercising are activities that produce endorphins that reconnect couples." I agree wholeheartedly with this. It's true that by fighting you are share more passion and more insight. Read more here >>>> ©The Tesh Media Group 2006-2008, All Rights Reserved Old Comments ========================================================================= byoshikawa wrote on Dec 4, '08 Yes/no, true... that fighting to said what we needed to say...but if all can prevent, sit down and talk about it rather then fight about isn't that better... while me and Anlii are together we fight all the time, that doesn't keep us together... it just make us well "me" realize how much different and apart we are....   iceangelwolf wrote on Dec 4, '08 *smiles* exactly, how often you fight does make a difference, but you shouldn't run away to avoid one, but talk through it after calming down some. Some people just run without bothering to figure out how to work through them. I never run from a fight, but try to learn from them.

Christmas Wishes

I hope all are thankful this time of year. This is a time of reflections and of peace to all. It's time to remove fear and become strong. It's time to throw away the past and start brand new in the new year. Start the new year on track. The true meaning of Christmas is NOT to shop for presents for the kids or family; the true meaning of Christmas is to share with your family stories of childhood wishes and dreams. It's this time that is better spent not at your local mall, but in your homes with your children around your feet. Drinking hot chocolate, listening to Christmas music and listen in silence to the real sounds of Christmas. Finally, my wish for you, is to believe in the power of the Christmas Spirit. Do what your heart of hearts instructs you. Just stay away from stores this year!

What love means to me

Friends are people who respect your choices. Significant others are people who respect your personality. I've had people tell me that talking is how you know someone. Not true. Getting to know someone is observing how they treat you. I've never talked about personal stuff with my friends, yet oddly enough, they know everything there is to know about me and then some. Some even know me better than I know myself. This all from me not even saying a word, not holding a conversation about how I 'tick', etc. Merely from me listening to them and providing responses of how I would handle things. Nothing more. I don't ask people about their personal lives. It's up to them to share that with me. I don't ask about their children. Some will get defensive and rightly so. In an online environment, you can never be too careful. I rather let people provide me with info on their child's accomplishments than waiting for me to ask about them.  People who require conversations lose so much quality romantic time. You can't watch the stars while trying to hold a conversation, it loses its momentum, you can't smell the flowers while talking about the weather, you lose its fragrance. Let nature be the words instead. You'll find that the less you actually speak, the more you will learn about the person you are with.  In life, the truth of it all really is... "Less is more". It includes conversations, friends, and special things.    I usually tell people that if they really want to know who I am inside, read my work, watch me react to things, watch me smile. Look deep in my eyes. Regardless whether it's an online or offline relationship; you really can tell if a person is smiling behind the screen or not if you just observe them carefully... For now this is the end of my blog. Not poetry, not prose, just a simple observation on life's special magic; known as love!

Lovers Walk!

I walk in the valley of roses, Smelling their fragrances, Forgetting the past, Looking to the future, Forgetting the fakes, Searching for truth, Seeking real love, Seeking honest love, Seeking unconditional love. Walking in the valley of Roses, Smelling fragrances of love, Smelling fragrances of happiness. A hope to one day walk, In the valley of Roses... With a loved one so dear!

Firsts

10/30/2005 3:41 PM So many firsts we take for granted. The first step The first clap The first crawl The first tooth The first word/sound The first grabbin fingers The first bite of real food The first walk with no help The first standing alone Many of these we take for granted but one stands out the most and if lucky will always be there when we are sad, or in need. When everything seems to fall down around us. That is one "first" that is always a first no matter how many times its performed or shown... And that first is: The First Smile - This is that all important first that always brings about laughter, peace, fun, joy and hope. It's what dreams are made of. It's what turns a frown into a smile and what makes a crying child/ even adult not help but share in that smiling face. So make today and the rest of your lives a Smile only zone and you'll be happy forever! Queenie™

Peace

Where shall we find the peace we so desperately need? Perhaps only in our minds eye? Perhaps peace only exists in fairytales of long ago! Nothing ventured is nothing gained, leading me to believe that perhaps peace is something that needs to be sought after rather then obtained freely? What more can be said on a feeling of tranquility that seems to be so far and few between? A wish for long ago picnics, for smooth flowing rivers, and the carefree days when romance was pure and without malice!  ~Peace~ Something to be desired in this weakened heart!

A "girl" named Sue

From the island of the Irish; A surprise to see her face; A gentle smile and a kiss; My heart leaped at her grace. At a time my heart was breaking; She showed me how to unbreak; Her smile, her winks, her laughter; All gave me such feeling of cheer. For months on end she's been my rock; My true one to lean my heart on; Our friendship with its strong bond; Fear and lonliness seem all but gone. Sometimes wishing for a little more; Knowing there can never be more; Yet, sadness doesn't appear with her; She brightens my life just that much more. Perhaps one day fate will intervene; Her heart of gold will always gleam; Always bringing me a happy glee; She glows and shines through me. A movie title named for her; Though silly in its words; For not a boy represents her; My giggleness is because of her; She dances in my dreams; Cheering me through bad dreams; Laughing with me in happy dreams; I'm glad to have her in my dreams.

If tomorrow never comes

If I knew it would be the last time that i'd see you fall asleep, I would tuck you in tighter and pray the Lord,your soul to keep. If I knew it would be the last time that I see you walk out the door, I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more. If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise, I would video tape each action and word so I could play them back day after day. If I knew it would be the last time,I could spare an extra minute or two to stop and say love you instead of assuming you would KNOW i do. If I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share your day well i'm sure you'll have so many more,so I can let just this one slip away. For surely there's always tomorrow to make up for an oversight and we always get a second chance to make everything right. There will always be another day to say our,"I love you's," and certainly there's another chance to say our."Anything i can do's?" But just in case i might be wrong,and today is all i get I'd like to say how much I love you and I hope we never forget. Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,young or old alike,and today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight. So if you're waiting for tomorrow,why not do it today? For if tomorrow never comes,you'll surely regret the day, That you didn't take that extra time for a smile,a hug, or a kiss and you were to busy to grant someone,what turned out to be their one last wish. So always hold them dear.Take time to say I'm sorry, Please forgive me, Thank you,or It's okay. And if tomorrow never comes you'll have no regrets about today.  Posted by Wickedjester

While you were sleeping

When your there and I'm here, I'd wish i was there or you here to hold. I know your in bed and start thinking, How pretty you must be while your sleeping. You look peaceful while your hearts beating Never did you know that one day you'd meet someone, someone that will make you smile and laugh again and wipe away those tears. But then you asked for him to be sent by prayer. Little did you know you'd have to wait long. Cause while you were sleeping,he sent me to you My dear. Wickedjester

A Prayer Answered

Someone asked God to send them a mate, Aday,a week,and a month go by,and ya think he forgot the date. So you asked him again with your heart in mind, and you'd hope that he wouldn't waste no time. Your unhappy and lonely as he can see, then one day he brought you to me. You longed for someone to hold you,and to take away the pain. Little did you know he sent me to you on that special day. He sent you happiness and joy on that one nite,and when you held him you knew it was right. So now you say thanks for the gift you got and your heart will be happy now as it ought. You can smile and luagh again as many can see A Prayer you said that asked for me. Now I'm here to take it slow and make all your day with a smile glow. Wickedjester

I'll be there again

I'll be there again when you call on me, just look in your heart and you will see. I'll be there again to help with your sorrow, so lean on me and i'll wipe the tears away. I'll be there again when you are lonely, just call on me and i will come without a doubt. I'll be there again to give you sight, when you don't see what is right. I'll be there again to help you with your life even when things don't alway go right. I'll be there again to touch your heart, by sending my love and makin the sadness part. I'll be there again to help you not give up, for all you need to do is just look up. I'll be there again when death is at your door, to take your hand and lead you home. I'll be there again when you call on me, for I am your best friend one with out end. So when in doubt just look in your heart, and I'll be there again wickedjester

To My Infant Daughter (II) --------------- by Yvor Winters (1900-1968)

Alas,that i should be So old,and you so small You will think naught of me When your dire hours befall   Take few men to your heart! Unstable,fierce,unkind, The ways that men impart. True love is slow to find   True art is slow to grow. Like a belated friend, It comes to let one know Of what has had an end. wickedjester

Sleep

Pure and simple and yet sometimes hard to attain. It's that precious place we go to rest our eyes. Dreams of trips taken  by plane or train. A word that takes us away from your lives. And what would this thing be? The one thing that always seems to be not enough...   Sleep

STOP! Step back! Look outside!

There's a world out there, A nature's beauty to share, Calmness floating in the air, Let the wind carry you there.   Watch the leaves flit and sway, Gently floating silently away, Shadows released by the sun's ray, Troubles slowly drifting away.   Watch the sunset hide away, While the moonbeams have their say, Starlights twinkle through the haze, Carrying all our fears away.   For a moment we can forget the wear, Of the fear that shadowed there, Open your eyes and feel the air, Gently washing away your cares.   So... Stop! Step back! Take a refreshing look outside, today, Let the air wash those fears away!