Ramblings of the damned

NOT REALLY POEMS BUT HEHE I LIKE THEM ========================= JUST AS I WAS ABOUT TO PULL The TRIGER A BRIGHT FLASH INTERUPTED MY ATTEPMT OF SUICIDE , WHICH UNTIL THAT MORNING I STILL HAD A HOPE OF MY LIFE GETTING BETTER,UNTIL THAT MORNING WHEN I SAW MY HOPES DASHED AGAINSTHE ROCKS AS IF THEY WERE A CRUSHED BODY (WITCH ) HAD JUST BEEN DASHED AGAINST THE SHORLINE. WHEN I SAW THE ONE I LOVED WITH ALL MY HEART KISS SOMEONE ELSE AND THEN TO SEE HER WALK HAND IN HAND WITH HIM OUT OF MY LIFE FOREVER. I FINALY REALIZED I WAS ALWAYS MENT TO LIVE MY ACURSED LIFE ALONE . I FINALY UNDERSTOOD MY LIFE WAS A WASTE OF AIR FOR THOSE WHO DID HAVE SOMEONE TO LOVE AND BE LOVED BY. I LOOKED TO SEE WHAT THE FLASH WAS , MAYBE HOPING IT WOIULD CHANGE MY LIFE FOR THE BETTER , BUT WHEN I LOOKED I SAW THAT IT WAS ONLY MY RING WHICH SHE HAD GIVEN BACK TO ME REFLECTING THE SUNLIGHT BACK IN TO MY EYES MOCKINGLY ...........CLICK, BANG.................   REASONS WHEN THE WIND BLOWS WHEN BELLS TOLL WHEN BIRDS SING WHEN CHIMES RING NO MATTER THE SEASON I THINK OF YOU THERES ONLY ONE REASON I DEARLY LOVE YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHEN DEMONS SCREAM HUMANS WILL DREAM OF FLYING SPECTERS OF SWEET NECTERS DREAMS OF FLIGHT AND NOBLE RIGHT VOID EVERYONE THINKS LIFE IS GRAND TO ME ITS JUST A ONE NIGHT stand. TO THEM LIFE IS A DREAm BUT IN MY SOUL I ONLY SCREAM. YOU CANT TELL ME YOU UNDERSTANd, DONT GIVE ME REPROMAND I AWAIT DEATHS freezing embrace rusted chains honour and love have died cruility and hate will always thrive when my time arives i will no longer hear there cries the chains that have hold on me will break and set me free no longer will i cry for thee then i may finaly fly free   nosferatus chant drip drip here it comes always beating like the drums red and sweet as a flower i will gain the true power drip drip there it goes ever and constant it always flows use a knife to give me life watch it drain from my veins once again ill feel no pain as the sweet necter of life drains life will begin and no longer will i feel the pains i love you i love you she said , we will be together forever she said . i love you she said , dont worry she said . i love you she said , there will be no other . i love you she said , it wasnt to me. illusiions we think we know right from wrong but soon we forget and lose out sight . we think theres a line between light and dark but soon this place of mind leaves its mark we kill the killers of men with the thought of the mighty pen we think there are ways to cancil our sins so that we can make amends , we have the honoroble so few becouse the men of this world would rather fued, we think we where born of god but in truth we were spawned =================================================================== From: ΔViXeNΔ - - - - 8/29/03 1:23pm Damn this is dark and sort of ....well ....its... .....WOW!

Angel & Icewolf

Forever remembering The Angel and The Icewolf!   Upon a cloud of glistening white; The Angel watches over her mountaintop from whence her Icewolf first found happiness. Through the valley of tears he sought her gentle touch. A dark heart melted with her heart of gold. Tears replaced with joy and smiles. Kissed with life from an Angel's soul  Forever implanted within. Within these mists the Angel waits for the one she holds so dear.   Happiness fills her soul at her magical gift of renewal for this beloved icewolf! Tenderly her kisses brought him back to life. Gently her hugs brought comfort to his soul. Even the trees had become full of life when she appeared smiling from her cloud of white. How beautiful now was life for the Angel and the Icewolf. Free of worries; Free of fear. A life now rich with beauty like never before. A heart so true it fills the entire soul.   Forever remembering The Angel and The Icewolf! Items on this page are all copyrighted and not to be used elsewhere ©2003 Icewolf/AngelofLove

The last time... by icewolf_nz

Written: 8/27/03 2:07am The Last Time... With dying breath did last I hold, and then let go this heart so cold For now no need,no fear of lie No hurt nor darkness,where lovers fly No just hold hands or walk with me, but reach inside me just to see In you behold,my love is true tis how I feel my love for you How you endure,how keep you strong, and calm my anger,when know me wrong Why did you stay and keep me so, to lift me high when feeling low You hold me to you,when need I hide, and then become me deep inside How not replace who came before, but be the first that I adore The first to share,be always mine and show forever,you my love for all time

This time.... by icewolf_nz

Written: 8/27/03 2:04am This time....... Where once there was nothing,the emptiness cold grew something familiar,remembered from old. Through long nights awake and days filled with pain, the onslaught unending,revisited again. Yet now it subsides,as the sun from the sky, leaving shades like those seen,in a tear from your eye. As I sit now alone,reminiscent of times, when all life was joy,and true love was mine. How cruel life can be,when both taken away, still now does it pain me,to think of that day. And even so lessen,as I dream now of you, like the day chases night,be your love I pursue. Did I see how I held you,eyes closed in embrace, wishing never to awaken,never leaving this place. One day will I find you,one day will you know, that I shall love you eternal,and never let go. What grows now inside me,I thought would never return, more so with each day,does my love for you burn. Yet when will I tell you,are we two meant to be, will my life become shared,with the girl of my dreams. ====================================================== From: AppealingCatherine_49 - - - - Sent: 8/27/2003 6:29 PM I have to say all these poems are very eloquently written and verse. I really enjoy words that feel such emotion and depth in range . Thank you for sharing them Cath From: AppealingCatherine_49 - - - - Sent: 8/27/2003 6:34 PM For within the heart that has slept quietly in soft slumber. Dormant from not feeling love. A small illuminous light beckons awakening inside. The heart rejoices in rebirth feeling emotion all in the world that surrounds it. There is love for the heart, it thrives flourishes. It is awakened. Cathie

My Lady by icewolf-nz

Written: 8/27/03 2:01am My Lady Since times gone by,and times untold,I remember only one ,twas the time we met the very first,that burn`s me as the sun. I recall the time,the date,the year,yet remember not the place. Nor the scene the sound,nor those around,only the look upon your face. Within your eye`s,I longed to stay,and keep me forever still, for if you left or ran away,the pain would surely kill. When first you left I was alone,and frightened at the thought, and then you came and strong I felt yet still my feeling`s nought. And then you took me in your eye`s,and stronger I became, for with you here ,your love so dear my feeling`s found a name. My being whole,my feeling`s complete,I knew then where I was. Beside the one who knew me through,and loved you just because.

The Beauty of the Miracle of Love!

Eyes full of tears listening to the heartbeat next to her... How is this possible? She didn't deserve such a vision. She didn't deserve to be in this moment! Laying beside her could only be a Dream in her eyes, yet it was real for he was there!! She could smell him, touch him...This was no dream! This was no fantasy...This was real... 100% undeniably real. Yet doubts still flooded her and she knew not why. What had she done to deserve such a treat as this? What had she done to be allowed this experience? This, to her, was a miracle, an unexplained phenomenon... an unbelievable sight...  Her heart was flooded with emotion as she listened to the breathing of this MAN, This gift from up above... Even tho she was able to touch and breath him still she could not believe this was real... The rise and fall of his chest gently beside her... She stared for what seemed like forever fearing that if she stopped this vision would disappear and never return... It seemed like hours as she lay watching him, drinking in this moment of uninibited emotion... Silence filled her senses and all she heard was the magical sound of his breathing... His essence brought life to her, made her real. She never knew this joy before... this feeling had always been missing from her heart... She had searched far and wide for this, only to be disappointed and heart broken... But this morning that all changed for here she was feeling like a brand new babe... Nothing will ever compare to this feeling of utter devotion. She wanted to laugh, She wanted to cry, all at the same time... Her emotions had burst...she was feeling everything that could possibly be felt...too numerous to mention even here... Her sighs sounded like an Angel's cry of joy! Her essence was pure and fresh... She couldn't have asked for a better miracle. Gently she wrapped her arms around her Love... laying her head upon his chest, listened once more to the pitterpat of his heartbeat! She was finally HOME! Tears from her eyes gently rolled down her cheeks and she smiled at her dear precious miracle...A silent prayer of thanks was given to the creator of her utter happiness... Listening to this heartbeat next to her...she knew she finally found purpose in her world...and was forever happy! =========================================================== From: Wickedjester22 - - - - 8/20/03 DARN YOU QUEENIE.YOU MADE TEARS IN MY EYES FILL UP.THAT IS SO SWEET. I CAN RELATE TO THAT ONE CAUSE I FINALLY FOUND MY MIRACLE,AND I KNOW HOW SHE FEELS. IT TRUELY IS A BLESSING FROM ABOVE WHEN TWO PEOPLE THAT ARE MEANT TO BE FINALLY FIND EACH OTHER. IT IS A FEELING LIKE NO OTHER AND CAN'T BE EXPLAINED. IT DOES MAKE AND BRING TRUE HAPPINESS INTO ONES LIFE WHEN IT HAPPENS.FOR GOD DOES KNOW WHAT WE ALL NEED IN OUR LIVES AND FOR SOME IT TAKES LONGER THAN OTHERS TO GET.BUT ONCE IT IS FOUND TRUE HAPPINESS MAKES THE HEART SING IN WAY THAT IS UNDESCRIBEALBE.IT MAKES ONE THINK OF WHAT THIS MISSED OVER THE YEARS.IT MAY TAKE AWHILE BUT THERE IS SOMEONE OUT THERE FOR EVERYONE TO FIND. ===========================================================

Messages from Detroit Friends circa 2003

This has been re-printed with permission from NewSoul of the old Grand Rapids and Beyond group which is no longer.   Here are two articles that I have found about someone who has met women on the internet so he can come into contact with their children:   Man accused of sexually assaulting child Suspect in girl's rape dated moms to get to kids, police say   If anyone has had contact with this individual, and suspects anything like this has happened in your family, someone you know, or someone you have heard of, please contact your local police to report it.   If anyone is a Manager, or posts on other boards in or around Michigan, please share this information. Sent: 6/26/2004 1:16 PM This is very important: We need your help!! This hits close to him as a dear friend of mine, Steve, aka NewSoul who happens to be the father in this case is trying to protect his children from this happening again. His oldest daughter is the victim in these articles and was forced by her mother's bf to perform oral sex on him... For more than 2 years. So please we need as many people as possible to protest the decision that these innocent children be returned to their mother who has allowed this to happen on a reg basis. These violaters need to be stopped... Thank You!!!!!!!! Please post this on as many sites as you can. The more people are aware the more we can stop this abuse.  http://www.freep.com/news/mich/net12_20031112.htm http://theoaklandpress.com/stories/061504/pol_20040615012.shtml The mother did not cooporate with the police, did not get charged, and actually tried to cover up the crime. Since she was not charged with a crime, the girls have since been returned to the mother AppealingCatherine_49  Sent: 6/26/2004 4:25 PM Thank you for posting this ladies. I definitely agree people such as this are threat to all children. It’s the worst thing I can imagine a child having to suffer from sexual abuse. I as a childcare professional care do what can to help. I will email my state legislature with my concerns along with the article's. We all love our children try to do right things so this important help in any way you can. Cath                        §yъiĿ Sent: 12/28/2003 4:41 PM This message is for those who attended my birthday party last night: Thank you for caring enough to attend my first and last hosted party. It's nice to know that true friends do exist and not the fake. "Pretend to be someone else" who think that playing high school games are the norm. So personally I'm gonna thank all who showed up individually.... Ready?!!!! I wish to thank>>>>>> Hawkie MrGrizzly Paganwolf Timberwolf Isis And best of all I wish to thank..... xx_Jade_eyez_xx aka Ashley Wickedjester22 aka Leo For their unconditional friendship and caring nature..ALL of you are my dearest and truest friends..Again I thank you! If your name doesn't appear here it's only because you couldn't make it.. not because you're not a good dear friend... From: WOWLEGS Sent: 12/31/2003 6:56 PM i wish i was there.... Sent: 8/16/2003 11:47 AM This is part of a conversation taken from the chatroom this morning from one of our family members! It's nice to receive compliments on hard work and perseverance; Though rare in occurrance, it's a pleasure when one thanks us for the work we try to do here. So here is part of that conversation and an e-mail that was sent to the Managers.>> Thinkerm517 : I must compliment the room owners here. Even though I have not been and I cannot be due to work related travel, I always keep getting room updates. So whoever is doing this, please pass on my compliments for keeping everyone informed. Thinkerm517: It is the only room I have stayed with for a long time. Well, Queen......Again... Thanks! And You are doing a terrific service to the room members at large. Thinkerm517: Bye for now. From: Thinkerm517 To the Mgr/s : Thank you for keeping everyone advised ................. BW : Hal >Subject: Detroit Friends & Romance 2 Announcement - FOR THOSE WHO LOST POWER!! >Date: Fri, 15 Aug 2003 10:37:05 -0700

Memory of Romance!

Life takes a turn for the worst! Compassion and respect have all but disappeared! Where is the romance anymore? Does it even still exist? Where are the knights in shining armor who protects the lady's from distress? Seems all just a fantasy today in this century! No more do we see the white stallions galloping to save a damsel in distress as once was done in years gone by. Often you wonder if ever a time will come when the past will catch up with the present. Well considering what I see now I highly doubt that happening any time soon. Only liars and users exist today in abundance. Romance seems as rare and a perfect diamond. Oh if only to travel back in time to days of pure romance! That's where the real love existed. =========================================================== From: Wickedjester22 - - - - August 8, 2003 SOMETIMES A KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR COMES ONCE IN A BLUE MOON. SOME TIMES IT'S THE DAMSIL THAT IS HARD TO FIND NOT THE KNIGHT. FOR IT MAY TAKE DAYS,MONTHS,OR EVEN YEARS TO FIND THAT PERSON IN SOME CASES. BUT SOME WHERE SOME HOW THEY ALWAYS FIND EACH OTHER. THEY SEARCH THE WORLD OVER TIL THEY DO AND GO THREW MANY CHANGES IN THEIR LIVES JUST TO FIND THAT RIGHT PERSON. AND WHEN THEY DO IT IS TRUELY A BLESSING. =========================================================== From: Dreamwell2 - - - - August 13, 2003 Knights and their "Damsels in distress".... in times of yore, understood and respected each other's limitations. And as a process of that understanding appreciated their assets. That magic...that  wonderful magic...is what seems to be lacking today. =========================================================== From: AppealingCatherine_49 - - - - August 14, 2003 I think that today chivalry is still prevaling. Its the simplicity in smaller acts as opening a car door for a lady, pulling out her chair waiting for her to be seated first. Bringing her a small rose as a token of affection. Knowing woman needs emotionally to feel connected and special. Yes there are still White Knights today amoung us, you find them by the way they wear their heart. Their the ones who speak softly but wear a full and loving heart. Yes there still around. People connect through mutual respect and kindess no small deed of such ever goes unoticed in earnest. =========================================================== From: Wickedjester22 - - - - August 14, 2003 THAT IS SO TRUE CATH. ======================== I AGREE WITH DREAM.THE MAGIC THAT MAKES A RELATIONSHIP STAY TOGETHER IS WHAT IS MISSING. THE TRUST, COMMUNICATION, RESPECT, LOYALITY,HONESTY,AND LOVE FOR ONE ANOTHER ARE SOME QUALITIES THAT EVERYONE NEEDS TO HAVE IN THE RELATIONSHIP,WITHOUT ONE OF THEM IT WILL CUMBLE. AND WITH ALL OF THEM YOU HAVE A LIFE OF HAPPINESS WHY THEY ARE APPLIED. FOR SOME THINK MONEY MAKES THEM HAPPY.FOR THAT IS NOT THE CASE,FOR MONEY IS HERE TO HELP YOU GET BY IN LIFE, IT CAN'T BUY TRUE HAPPINESS. I KNOW I AM YOUNG BUT IN MY LIFE I HAVE BEEN THREW AND SEEN MORE THAN MOST PEOPLE WILL SEE IN THERE LIFE TIME. SO FOR ME THESE THINGS ARE LIKE FLOWERS,THEY ALL ARE NEED IN YOUR LIFE FOR DIFFERENT REASON.FLOWERS ARE LIKE PEOPLE WE BOTH NEED TENDER LOVIN CARE.THEY START OUT A SEED,AND AS YOU WATER IT IT STARTS TO GROW.THEN IT IS ALSO GIVEN SUNLIGHT LIGHT WHICH MAKES ITS GROW MORE.THEN THE FLOWER STARTS TO BLOOM.GIVE IT MORE WATER AND SOON YOU WILL SEE IT OPEN UP INTO A BEAUTIFUL FLOWER WHICH YOU CAN CHERISH WHILE IT IS HERE. =========================================================== From: «BụttέrƒLy◊Ki§§έ§» - - - - August 15, 2003 Send me some of that magic...lol ===========================================================

A Dream

A Dream   Good life is hard to find, Quiet life is never mine, Though never free I'll tell you why, This life I live is like a dream, With birds and bees around the bend, Young and Old become great friends. Everyone is happy and never sad, Nothing Hurtful ever said. Such would be the Dream life of mine

Another poem by me

From: AppealingCatherine_49 - - - - Sent: 7/16/2003 7:59 AM You make my heart sing. You make me feel this thing, called Love. You awaken within me life, mine. To know that I m truly loved, for the person I am, just myself. To be loved so unconditional, freely, and be trusted with such love as yours. This is a precious gift a treasure, unlike that of  precious gem or gold. Your love I hold within my heart. All I can give in return to your love is my own heart. Trust in it, its inner strength, its abundance to love you, and only you. For the depth my heart encompasses has no boundaries, what my heart feels surpasses time itself my love.

When is a heart strong enough to never hurt?

When is a heart strong enough not to break? Is there an answer? Probably not. Perhaps break isn't the right word to express a hurt that hopefully is temporary! Perhaps it's just a crack that happens  in the best of couples. It's hard to say at this moment in time what the best answer would be! A heart is a sensitive organ and is easily hurt. I doubt it's ever strong enough to withstand normal hurts of life. Though the hurt sometimes is temporary the moment of hurt is/can be just as devastating as a permanent one. The saying goes "You always hurt the ones ya love". But why must it be that way? I guess it's a way of growing closer to those you really care about. I do hope that's true cause right at this moment, well it just don't feel that way. It's times like these that ya just can't force happiness. I just wish I had a stronger heart. ============================= Is there truth in feelings of the heart? Can love survive the test of time? I've searched my soul for these answers. And I've not received any response. I am one who loves with everything that is dear. Tho misunderstood it's a part of me. Once I love with all my heart there's no turning back. Nothing to stop me from feeling this way. I just wish it was easy to love like in the olden days. When simplicity was all it took. Now there's so many complications and rules. I will succeed with my endeavor to find the answers I seek. =========================================

Baby Announcements

6/9/2003 Welcome Logan! Dragonfly's New Baby Boy! ITS A BOY!!!! LOGAN JAMES DONOVON QUINN 6-9-03 AT 5:29P.M. 6 lbs 14 OZ. 18in Mother and son are doing well....Lets all wish them well and once again Congratulations Dragonfly!!  7/9/200 ¤°¤§îmþ£ÿ®ª¶éý¤°¤'s New Baby Boy! I just had my son finally!!! He was born July 9th at 10:34pm he was 6lbs and 5 oz 19 1/2 inches long. as soon as there are pictures online i'll let everyone know!! Ragey 9/12/2003 Welcome Caden Helen! €llÁÐÍÁßlÓ's New Baby Hello Everyone~~  For those of you who don't already know......I had a baby girl last month. 9-12-03, 8 pounds 13 ounces, her name is Caden Hellen. ~ Elladiablo ~ 9/27/2004 Welcome Christopher! Son of Ǻήgέ£♥OF♥£oVέ   Christopher Michael-RJ September 27, 2004 3:03 pm 9lbs 9oz 23 inches long

Elizabeth Barrett Browning

From: (ME) Ǻήgέ£♥OF♥£oVέ♥ - - - - Sent: 5/31/2003 8:49 AM A Dead Rose by Elizabeth Barrett Browning   O Rose! who dares to name thee? No longer roseate now, nor soft, nor sweet; But pale, and hard, and dry, as stubble-wheat,--- Kept seven years in a drawer---thy titles shame thee. The breeze that used to blow thee Between the hedgerow thorns, and take away An odour up the lane to last all day,--- If breathing now,---unsweetened would forego thee. The sun that used to smite thee, And mix his glory in thy gorgeous urn, Till beam appeared to bloom, and flower to burn,--- If shining now,---with not a hue would light thee. The dew that used to wet thee, And, white first, grow incarnadined, because It lay upon thee where the crimson was,--- If dropping now,---would darken where it met thee. The fly that lit upon thee, To stretch the tendrils of its tiny feet, Along thy leaf's pure edges, after heat,--- If lighting now,---would coldly overrun thee. The bee that once did suck thee, And build thy perfumed ambers up his hive, And swoon in thee for joy, till scarce alive,--- If passing now,---would blindly overlook thee. The heart doth recognise thee, Alone, alone! The heart doth smell thee sweet, Doth view thee fair, doth judge thee most complete,--- Though seeing now those changes that disguise thee. Yes, and the heart doth owe thee More love, dead rose! than to such roses bold As Julia wears at dances, smiling cold!--- Lie still upon this heart---which breaks below thee!=================================================================== From: (ME) Ǻήgέ£♥OF♥£oVέ♥ - - - - Sent: 12/25/2003 1:54 PM How Do I Love Thee?  by Elizabeth Barrett Browning How do I love thee? Let me count the ways. I love thee to the depth and breadth and height My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight For the ends of Being and ideal Grace. I love thee to the level of every day's Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight. I love thee freely, as men strive for Right; I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise. I love with a passion put to use In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith. I love thee with a love I seemed to lose With my lost saints, -- I love thee with the breath, Smiles, tears, of all my life! -- and, if God choose, I shall but love thee better after death.

just how poor are we?

From: Dutch (Original Message) - - - - Sent: 5/30/2003 5:33 PM =================================================================== One day a father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose of showing his son how poor people live. They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family. On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?" "It was great, Dad." "Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked. "Oh Yeah" said the son. "So what did you learn from the trip?" asked the father. The son answered, "I saw that we have one dog and they had four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night. Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon. We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight. We have servants who serve us, but they serve others. We buy our food, but they grow theirs. We have walls around our property to protect us - they have friends to protect them." With this the boy's father was speechless. Then his son added, "Thanks, dad, for showing me how poor we are." Too many times we forget what we have and concentrate on what we don't have. It is all based on one's ATTITUDE.

A Sad heart that turned happy

I know what it's like to lose a parent, but time goes on and waits for no one. I've seen friendships come and go, and new ones to take the place of what was old. I lost a wife,lover and friend all in one day, they all packed and took my heart away. I felt hurt that no ones ever known, but in my heart it's deeply shown. It's hard to find someone to bring you joy, just look in the eyes of your child playing with a toy. What will make the sadness go away, the hurt inside just wants to stay. Than one day with out warning, someone special comes your way. Your heart get's healed that day, the hurt and pain has gone away. From: Wickedjester - - - - 5/28/03 =================================================================== From: ME - - - - 5/28/03 6:19am   Only friendships that are true and pure, tend to be forever, loyal and true. Many others simply come and go Those that stay are made of Gold. Special friendships and lovers too, also must be pure and true, to stay in that heart so true. So let's hope this special one Has the heart of Gold. Those friends and family you hold dear.... will stay through thick and thin.... Soulmates of the heart will stay forever more...   I just had to add my own words to this once more............ Such great words Wicked.... You've got more friends then you possibly know.... Don't ever let your personality change..... It's a gift that only you possess.....

Angels

From: ΔViXeNΔ - - - - 5/21/03 11:28pm =================================================================== Angels of the EAST......Angels of the WEST.....NORTH and SOUTH....just do your best......to watch MY angel while she rests.............   I liked this so much.....just thought I would share.........   Kristi

PAIN!

Written by someone who gave me permission to post it here!! PAIN Day to day, I go though life, Dealing with pain and strife. I end up making mistakes, And trying to learn how to survive. I love without being loved, I care for ones who could care less. Being alone becomes a part of daily life, No matter what I try to do, It never lessens the hurt inside. So many days I just want to die, Give up the whole fight. So much pain and grief in my mind, That I just can not shake. Pain and hatred, Anger and grief. The torture that I put myself through. The anguish that I let people put me through. Violence. Anger. Torture. Fear. I want to kill, I want to die. The only thing that keeps me alive, Is the love I have for my daughter inside. One million things in my mind. I can never begin to describe, The hurt that I hold deep inside. What is life, what is love, I really dont know. So many people tell me they know, That they understand. If this is the truth, Why dont they help me to understand? I just wish that I could find a way, To cope, With the pain. r.o. ================================================================== From: AppealingCatherine_49 - - - - Sent: 5/19/2003 1:25 PM This poem speaks to me these words I like to say. You have inner strength to guide you through each day. You have a heart created by Gods wonderous hands above. It overflows with rich goodness by the capacity you can love. Nothing in ones life is measured to each thier own due. The real tests of such lessons lies with inside of just you. Tell yourself as I would say if I knew you too, your one of Gods finest creations this is so true. Smile reflecting on the love that within you resides. You will make boundless leaps and the greatest of strides. So smile this moment know that as I send this you way. Your the best person inside that never goes a stray. ear your heart filled with love, keeping showing the world what I see. The best heart God created in you that can ever be. So now im done thanking you for listening ear. Know that the worlds still a good place where we all can still see or hear.

Friends: by Wickedjester

Who are your friends and how do you keep them? A friend is someone who cares and will be there for you. A friend will listen to your problems  and say things will be ok. They will not judge you for what you do or say. When you need a shoulder to lean on they are there for you. And when no one else is around and your feeling down your friend is near. Even when you get mad and say things mean a friend will blow it off as you will see. And that you don't believe what you hear cause sometimes ,someone doesn't want this friendship near. They may try to ruin this friendship you see by makin comments or saying things. So if you have doubt no need to worry just ask and the truth will come out. When you need to smile or jsut shed a tear look for me a i will be there. So i say this to you don't be angry in anyway cause you may lose a friend that way. Trust your heart and you will see,yes you have a friend in me. =================================================================== From: ME - - - - 5/17/03   Without friends our lives would be in turmoil.. There would be no love to share, No heart to care..... The world would be in chaos, and utter despair. Destruction will be everywhere. Trees and flowers will no longer be...... Rivers, Lakes, Ocean and the sea would all be dried up and just a hole in the ground..... Friends bring nature to life, They fill the holes in the ground with tears of joy and sadness, They fix the hurt and the destruction....... they take away the despair...... They will plant trees and flowers in your heart of doom.... And most of all....... Friends will give you life without end....!

My Special Friend

You make me laugh wheni want to cry. You're honest with me you'd never lie. You make my fears disappear,you make my problems seem so clear. If she breaks my heart or hurts me so,you're there for me. I'll always know. I hope our friendship never ends... You'll always be my special friend!   From: Wickedjester22 - - - - 5/17/03 =================================================================== From: ME - - - - 5/17/03 11:53am   Special friends are far and few between, Becomining all but extinct! If you're lucky enough to have a special person in your life, treasure it for all it's worth. Special friends are caring and understanding. Something we all need once in awhile.... Special friends are always thinking of you. Sometimes we can't even think for ourselves..... Special friends loves us dearly unconditionally. We all need to be loved in some shape or form... And the best love of all is from our special friends...... They won't break your heart.... They'll only wipe away the tears.... They'll hold you in your arms to squeeze away the pain.... When she denies your love and sends your heart in deep despair, A Special friend will lend you theirs to fill that emptiness....   Again I feel the need to add words to yours.... Your soul holds deep love and whoever you end up with as a soulmate will be the luckiest Lady in the world... I wish you the best of happiness in your heart's quest!

A Hearts love

A heart is not a play thing. a heart is not a game. but if you want if broken just give it to a dame.   Women mess around with men. to see what makes them tick but when it comes to kissing they do it just for kicks.   Women never give their hearts away they take all men for fools they wait til men gives theirs away and then they play it cool.   Don't ever fall in love my friend you'll find it never pays it causes broken hearts it happens everyday.   You'll wonder where she is at night you'll wonder if she is true one minute you'll be happy the next minute you'll be blue.   Each chance you have to see her your heart begins to dance you world revolves around her there nothing like romance   When it start you dont know you worry day and night you see my friend your losing her it never works out right   Love is right but it hurts so bad the price you pay is so high if I could choose between life or death I rather choose to die   So see my friend don't fall in love you'll get hurt before it's thorough you see my friend I ought to know because i fell for you From: Wickedjester - - - - 5/17/03 =================================================================== From: ME - - - - 5/17/03 6:06am   Sad to say that you're words bring a tear to my eye! To give up the most precious of all gifts is so devastating. Love is fragile as your heart is fragile and needs to be taken care of with kindess and helpfulness A Heart is fragile as you can see..... No one is safe from it's power... It is meant to be cherished and cared for..not hurt and played. It's easily broken, It easily bleeds! Falling in Love is hard to do when there's so much pain..   The more a heart is used, abused, broken, The harder it is for love to enter there!!!! We must remember that love is the cure of all despair!   LET LOVE SHINE! =================================================================== From: Snaky - - - - 5/17/03 1:42pm Wicked~~~~~~ Absolutely heartfelt.....great writing/outstanding (((((((((((huGs)))))))))) SSSSnaKy    Love like youve never been hurt.... =================================================================== From: SNOWANGEL1934 - - - - 8/10/03 8:11am   WICKED HOW TRUE. U HAVE JUST PUT INTO WORDS THE WAY I HAVE BEEN FEELING. FOR U IT WAS FEMALE AND ME A MALE. I DON;T THINK THERE IS ANY WORSE PAIN THAN A HEART THAT HAS BEEN BROKEN.   IF U WANT TO TALK PLEASE E-MAIL ME AND MAYBE WE CAN HELP EACH OTHER. I INOW FOR ONE I SURE COULD USE A LITTLE HELP